And Your 5 Second Answer Would Be?

Lauren Daigle, writer of many songs sung in churches finds herself caught in an uproar for her answers on The Ellen Show & on a live radio show…

People are saying she is no longer a Christian!

That her music should be banned!

Seriously?! Ban the music? Did your worship at church 3 weeks ago suddenly seem that you are now less close to God?!?!?

And her answers… She’s not Jesus… She’s out in public… She’s up for a Grammy!

Now what would your answer be… Right now? In the next 5 seconds! Well!?!?!?

I’ve taken a few minutes and really thought about it…

Do I think homosexuality is a sin?

It’s loaded question shot in a round room and I’m looking for a corner!

When Jesus was on earth, he didn’t focus on labelling people, he focused on loving them.

I think the best question is – does it matter?

Sin is sin… I do have beliefs and yes, one is that marriage was designed as one man and one woman.
However, that doesn’t make me judge and jury. Only God knows the heart…

A lie is a sin, an affair outside of marriage is a sin, stealing a candy bar is a sin, murder is a sin…

Sin is sin. It’s black or white. There are no shades of grey with God.
As humans we put “values” to sin… A “little” white lie to sentenced to death for henneous crimes… God doesn’t.

To get rid of sin is simple, we ask God to forgive and He does.

My role here on earth is explain by two verses:

Micah 6:8 (NIV): He has shown you, O man, what is good.
And what does the Lord require of you?
To act justly and to love mercy
and to walk humbly with your God

Matthew 22:37–40 (NIV): Jesus replied: “ ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment.
And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

Our job is to love… Not judge… To act with discernment, yes… But love…

Jesus never labelled anyone while on earth… The gospel writers did so we would understand the context of the story… Jesus only saw people whom he wanted to love…

Shouldn’t we simply do the same?

A lot people will use verses in Romans chapter 1… Which is the word of God…

But look at Romans 2:1–4 (NLT): You may think you can condemn such people, but you are just as bad, and you have no excuse! When you say they are wicked and should be punished, you are condemning yourself, for you who judge others do these very same things. And we know that God, in his justice, will punish anyone who does such things. Since you judge others for doing these things, why do you think you can avoid God’s judgment when you do the same things? Don’t you see how wonderfully kind, tolerant, and patient God is with you? Does this mean nothing to you? Can’t you see that his kindness is intended to turn you from your sin?

Bottom line… Don’t judge, just love… God can take care of the rest…

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Mental Health with Prudence

When I am in the middle of a mental health battle everything can and usually does seem wrong – bad – against me – nothing is going right and “NEVER” will again… and we all know that this is bunk when we are at the other side of the battle… 

The battles are dark and potentially deadly… and because of the deadly part – wisdom needs to be used… 

Proverbs 8:5-6 (NIV)
You who are simple, gain prudence;

You who are foolish, set your hearts on it. 
Listen, for I [widsom] have trustworthy things to say;
I open my lips to speak what is right.

Prudence:
1: the ability to govern and discipline oneself by the use of reason
2: sagacity or shrewdness in the management of affairs
3: skill and good judgment in the use of resources
4: caution or circumspection as to danger or risk

So #2 doesn’t really apply here but the other 3 most certainly do! 

#1 Govern and reason – Reason and mental health – basically mortal enemies and not used as a pun – 2 Cor 10:3-5 How do these words, arguments line up with God’s words and truth? It isn’t just a thoughts game – it is a Spiritual battle! Battle plan – praying, praying and more praying – and reaching out to have my network pray… 
#3 Skill and judgments and resources – as a Christian I have my Bible and my trusting “Bible First Aid Kit” – memories of dark times I have been through with God – verses in the Bible that talk to me about how irrational my behavior and thoughts are
#4 Caution – Keeping in touch with family and friends – my support network really helps keep me from big slides… I am accountable to them and they help me if they see changes in my behavior… 

Journalling – for me – journalling is important – I can look back and see success and joy!

But how about the hard times? Aren’t those depressing? 

No – I get to look back and see how God got me through the hard times! I get to look back and see just how far God has brought me! I get to go back and know that God has already helped me fight bigger battles and won them – so I know that whatever battle I find myself in – God will get me through now… 

This is called WISDOM – knowledge is knowing something can happen – WISDOM is putting knowledge into practice… 

Empathy with Charlie Brown

I grew up watching and reading Peanuts cartoons – their Christmas TV video is still a must…

The main character is Charlie Brown – a guy who seems to have the world against him at times…

Often dealing with mental health battles it does seem like the world is against me… which is an exaggerated generalization… and it seems like others are just getting their own way… the “lucky ones” – the ones that “always get the break”… their life seems to be so much better, together, less of a struggle…

How about the people who “understand” mental health – they were “depressed” when the item they wanted to buy either sold out or they couldn’t afford… or that their aunt Alice dealt with depression…

When people just “don’t get it” it’s frustrating – but then I also think – I wouldn’t wish this on anyone… so I just nod my head…

It seems like God has favorites… often one parent or grandparent or teacher or aunt or _______ has a favorite person… and it isn’t you… it doesn’t matter how hard you try…. nope…

I found this verse today when reading through my devotions:

Gal 2:6b (NLT) By the way, their reputation as great leaders made no difference to me, for God has no favorites.

Bad things happen to good people – it’s the price of sin – someone else can decide to do a wrong and it effected on other people… remember – mental health long term disorders are not just feelings but also physical differences in our brains… it stated that mental health issues are a combination of your environment AND your genetics… no one asks for it… it just is…

Depression is all about negative… healing is all about faith, love and hope with God…

and the greatest of these is love…

1 Cor 13:13 Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and loveand the greatest of these is love…

Kathy Troccoli has a song called How Would I Know

When I look back on some of the most trying times in my life – I can see how it was only with God’s involvement that I got through the hard times… and because I have had them, I know – I REALLY know that God is real, He loves me…

And – because of the hard times – I can totally relate to non-Christians who need to seek God… without my own trials – I would only be a person who “knows” because of aunt Alice… Our mandate as Christians is found in Matt 28:18-20

Jesus came and told his disciples, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

Sympathy is one thing – empathy is another… Christ on the cross shows true empathy… and He most certainly didn’t get special treatment…

Rejoice to the Max!

Phil 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice!

But is there ever a “max” rejoice level?

If you’ve read any other blog postings, then you know that I constantly push rejoicing…
To me, rejoice is the exact opposite of depression… It’s what I can get when I do the 180 and seek God… the rejoicing is how I actually do the 180… The more I rejoice and the longer I rejoice the closer to the 180 I complete…

Is it easy?? Heck no!!!

I still have my pity party days – my days of feeling totally overwhelmed – days when I need to follow my own advice and put my Bible First Aid Kit into use… I’m certainly no saint or perfect Christian… I “blow it” on a regular basis – just not as many times or for so long I think/hope…

We had a big event this week and I ended up feeling overwhelmed – and I “excused” myself to allow my non-God choices to self-soothe… and I KNEW I was but I just kept going on that path for a while… and then I finally realized the futility of it all… that it wasn’t going to solve my issue…

When I finally came out of denial – finally start to listen to the nudges I get inside – God’s Holy Spirit – I started by talking to God – just like I would to anyone on a phone call…. “Hello God” … I take a few deep breathes and remember

Psalms 46:10a He says, Be still, and know that I am God…

I find Him in the chaos of my thoughts… He is always there… and He is always loving and patient with me… always willing to forgive me… not that I can choose to sin because He will forgive… And – I also still have the consequences of my actions… those chocolates and chips don’t just disappear off my waist!

My devotions are taking me through the book of 1 Kings – David is now old and about to pass away – His second eldest son (the first was no longer living) had decided HE would be the next king and started having a big party to proclaim this…. The only problem was – David had been told by God that Solomon would be the next King…

David goes about and throws a bigger party for Solomon and (here is what stood out to me)…

1 Kings 1:40 And all the people followed Solomon into Jerusalem, playing flutes and shouting for joy. The celebration was so joyous and noisy that the earth shook with the sound…

Joy to the max! When the earth shakes – that’s when there is maybe starting to be enough rejoicing!!

Heaven will only be amplified!!

Looking for a place to rejoice!! Check out Celebrate Recovery – where I found my faith in God restored… where my sanity returned…

Faith or Lack Thereof and Demons Even Know

Faith or lack thereof … James 2:14-26 is a challenge (see below)…

With mental health, I see it as a two-fold issue – for those with AND without mental health issues…

With mental health the first, and often instant (stigma),  is “not showing it by our actions” – I mean come on – how is it you are able to stay in bed all day? Just get out, proclaim the wonders of God when you take a walk – “suck it up” –  have more faith!!

To those without mental health issues – my challenge would be – don’t judge what you don’t understand on a personal level… look at verse 15 & 16 (below) – we may not be without food or clothing – but we need prayer at the least – we might need someone to talk to on the phone – or just a text message saying you are praying for us… if you ask how we are doing – ask how we are REALLY doing – but ONLY if you are willing to really to commit yourself to listen, for coffee dates, for answering “help” text messages… don’t run away – that’s the worst thing you can do… you are either in or out

You see, mental health isn’t a one-time happenchance – it’s lifelong… (miracle healings not included)…

Yes, there are times of depression after someone passes away or something else that saddens us – and it will resolve after a while… and I’m so glad that this will be short lived…

For myself though – it was well beyond being just depressed – it was suicidal thoughts, it was suicidal plans, it was planning my funeral as my family would be so much better off without me… it was even more than what I have written here…

Taking a look deeper for those of us with mental health AND a relationship with God – it often seems insurmountable – but we do need to step out in faith – even though every cell in our body is SCREAMING against it… even though our arms, legs, bodies, head feel like they are cased in cement…

It doesn’t mean we are going to suddenly be hopping and skipping around – it’s likely going to just get up and sitting in the living room… opening the curtains… maybe sitting on the deck on a sunny day… texting someone – reaching out…

And it means reaching for our Bible – trusting that God will bring verses of comfort to replace the negative thoughts… these are the good deeds

One thing I learned recently – and a really comforting fact actually – is that Satan cannot hear our thoughts (yeah!) this also means – we need to tell Satan to get away from us out loud. I don’t know about others but on my not so great days – I tend to just think in my head when talk to God…

James 2:14–26 Faith without Good Deeds Is Dead
14 What good is it, dear brothers and sisters, if you say you have faith but don’t show it by your actions? Can that kind of faith save anyone? 15 Suppose you see a brother or sister who has no food or clothing, 16 and you say, “Good-bye and have a good day; stay warm and eat well”—but then you don’t give that person any food or clothing. What good does that do?
17 So you see, faith by itself isn’t enough. Unless it produces good deeds, it is dead and useless.
18 Now someone may argue, “Some people have faith; others have good deeds.” But I say, “How can you show me your faith if you don’t have good deeds? I will show you my faith by my good deeds.”

Even the demons believe this

19 You say you have faith, for you believe that there is one God. Good for you! Even the demons believe this, and they tremble in terror. 20 How foolish! Can’t you see that faith without good deeds is useless?
21 Don’t you remember that our ancestor Abraham was shown to be right with God by his actions when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? 22 You see, his faith and his actions worked together. His actions made his faith complete. 23 And so it happened just as the Scriptures say: “Abraham believed God, and God counted him as righteous because of his faith.” He was even called the friend of God. 24 So you see, we are shown to be right with God by what we do, not by faith alone.
25 Rahab the prostitute is another example. She was shown to be right with God by her actions when she hid those messengers and sent them safely away by a different road. 26 Just as the body is dead without breath, so also faith is dead without good works.

I recently went through a rough patch myself… and I did what I have just written

  • I reached out to my friends who I know will pray
  • I kept an open channel with God
    • praying out loud (often just a whisper) tell Satan he wasn’t welcome – using verses from the Bible I have written down – and I spoke them
    • I kept doing my devotions and I found support in everything I read
    • Psalms showed me attributes of God – and I claimed them… if the Psalm writer could claim them back then – I could claim them now – God is the same yesterday, today and forever!
  • I continued to reach out as needed

Eventually, life got better… I still deal with mental health every day – but sometimes are just harder than other times… showing my faith by actions – but getting true with God – by seeking Him… (and it isn’t just like turning on a light switch)… intently listening to that Voice inside… that tells me to do something I really don’t want to or feel I haven’t got the energy to do… it’s those actions of faith that get me through…

And no – I am far from perfect… there are days when I ignore the nudge… but then I realize I MUST… and after being obedient the first time – the second time is easier and so forth…

 

 

 

 

My Temple & Talk with God Today

Eze 44:5–8 Take careful note of the procedures for using the Temple’s entrances and exits. 6 And give these rebels, the people of Israel, this message from the Sovereign LORD: O people of Israel, enough of your detestable sins! 7 You have brought uncircumcised foreigners into my sanctuary—people who have no heart for God. In this way, you defiled my Temple even as you offered me my food, the fat and blood of sacrifices. In addition to all your other detestable sins, you have broken my covenant. 8 Instead of safeguarding my sacred rituals, you have hired foreigners to take charge of my sanctuary.

Back in Ezekiel’s day, God’s temple was a single building. Built with VERY specific measurements. Here the prophet’s role was to teach the Israelites not only how to physically rebuild God’s temple where Jehovah was going to return to but to also instruct the populations on how to change their ways when seeking forgiveness and worshipping God.

God has particular and well laid out rules (which no person actually keep which is why Jesus came as the final sin offering)…

Now, I deal with food addiction… food has always been a comfort for me… a way to stuff myself and my anxiety away… well – we all know what happens with that…

I have lost about 150 lbs in the last 5 years – but lately, the scale has been going the wrong way… I can easily pop off a few excuses (definition of excuse: skin of the truth stuffed with a lie) and humanly “justify” it

The reality is – my body IS God’s temple

God’s temple is holy, and you are that temple

1 Cor 3:16-17  16 Don’t you realize that all of you together are the temple of God and that the Spirit of God lives in[a] you? 17 God will destroy anyone who destroys this temple. For God’s temple is holy, and you are that temple

1 Cor 6:19-20 19 Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, 20 for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.

So- while I was talking with Him today – here is what we chatted about…

My child, you are reading about My temple – all the sacrifices, all the ways that were  necessary to purify the priests… verse 6 “enough of your detestable sins!” You have brought in things and defiled my temple – your body IS my temple! I have been nudging you about this – and even now I SHOUTING this and hitting you like a football linebacker! You have been ignoring my nudges – and are bearing the consequences of your disobedience… 

How many more times will you choose to not listen? the longer you choose to not listen, the quieter my Voice is to hear… 

Lord, You know my thoughts right now – You can see the turmoil stirring up inside! the fear of failing – “yet again” – all those voices of doubt… the feeling of being overwhelmed … But yet I know that with you NOTHING is impossible… You have helped me to build my rock based house – You have built is strong with bricks of truth, of testimony, with scripture that does not change, with the covenants which You hold true. You have supplied the mortar with the word of your testimony, of the miracles of have experienced, of your faithfulness, of Your love and it is my hope and with faith, I can use it to continue building… 

Being Truly Sorry and 3 Quick Questions

Yesterday, while doing my devotions I hit information overload and took a break… and my intention WAS to go back later – so you just read the word “was” and you already know the rest… I also had a fall yesterday and did a number on my back – so pain was a “factor” but in being honest – I could have still completed them…

I journal during my devotions – it helps to remember and comprehend what I am reading… and it works… and today – during the journalling part – before the reading of His Word, I was honest with Him – I had ignored the nudges from the Holy Spirit… but the bigger thing to examine was – given the same circumstances, would I do it again?

When my children were young, I taught them to know that “I’m sorry” really means – I wish I could undo what happened and I can promise you it won’t happen again…

I NEED to keep a short order with God – to stay on top of my mental health I continuously must to be open, honest and actively listening to God…

2 Cor 10:3-5 talks all about the spiritual warfare that is non-stop… and for me – it REALLY helps… does the help mean I can stop taking my psych meds – NO!!! There are still going to be times I have to deal with meds again… bodies and brains change so meds will change… BUT even Jesus used scripture in his battle with Satan!!!

OKAY – back with devotions – so I am truly sorry – but the “I won’t ever do it again” part was nagging at me – HOW can I prevent this from happening again?!?!?

My devotional was focused on Ezekial 23 talks about how Samaria and Jerusalem have defiled what God had planned for them… it’s not pretty…

I shortened the summary to 3 quick questions about situations and how I can approach them:

  1. Is this something I am lusting after (greener grass)?
  2. Is it a selfish choice?
  3. Is it a want (as opposed to a need)?

If I can answer YES to any of these… then I know I need to choose wisely – which actually HELPS my mental health issues… I know I’m doing what is right – so it’s a win and a 5-five which lifts my spirit…

My mental health often scrambles my thoughts… I can easily get to overload or underthink… having a quick set of guidelines questions can really help…

I can easily spin down when I realize I made the wrong choice… and then the mental health games ramp up… and it distracts me from God and what He would have me doing instead…

Devotional Book: Barry, J. D., & Kruyswijk, R. (2012). Connect the Testaments: A One-Year Daily Devotional with Bible Reading Plan. Bellingham, WA: Lexham Press.

The Faith of a Child and Sunday School Songs

Matthew 11:25 (NIV) At that time Jesus said, “I praise you, Father, Lord of heaven and earth, because you have hidden these things from the wise and learned, and revealed them to little children.

I recently spent some time with one of our grandchildren, not quite 2… They simply LOVE the Baby Shark song… And other simple songs… Today, I spent sometime searching YouTube to see what other videos they might like and found some of the old Sunday school songs that have lasted the ages…

Young children are so impressionable and Jesus states in Matt 11:25 that God has revealed things to children… Children have a huge faith in the adults and the world around them… they believe in anything they are told… They don’t rationalize… They don’t form committees to do a cost analysis… They don’t whip out their smart phone and Google it… They simply just believe…

I read another blog posting today on Jesus Loves Me

Sometimes life can be simple… NEEDS to be simple…

Mental health can be… CAN BE? No make that pretty much 100% chaotic if left alone! The thoughts, the words, the feelings or lack of feelings, the compulsive desires… A crisis spins faster than a hurricane…

It’s at the hard times that I need to simplify… I need to, with God’s help, control my thoughts…

Romans 12:1-2 And so, dear brothers and sisters, I plead with you to give your bodies to God because of all he has done for you. Let them be a living and holy sacrifice—the kind he will find acceptable. This is truly the way to worship him. 2 Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.

A new way of thinking… Does this mean if I have recurring thoughts I don’t have enough faith? Nope! Instead look at the renewing as a way to help get you out of the crazy times… learning to recognize the hard times BUT have an escape plan…

Keep it simple! Songs like Jesus loves me… Or I’ve got the joy joy joy joy down in my heart or Rejoice in the Lord Always… Simple songs but with undeniable truth!

For me, it’s hard to sing AND have all those voices and thoughts rattling around…

Biblical Networking 1 2 3 4

From my devotions…

Now this is networking at it’s best!

Jude 20–21 (NLT): But you, dear friends, must build each other up in your most holy faith, pray in the power of the Holy Spirit, and await the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ, who will bring you eternal life. In this way, you will keep yourselves safe in God’s love.

Here’s my breakdown:

Jude 20–21 (NLT): But you, dear friends, must

1. build each other up in your most holy faith During any type of mental health day… From the stay in bed and recluse day, the suicidal thoughts day, the small or massive anxiety days… Sharing how God has really been there in the past and how it has increased our faith…

And certainly on the NOT but GOOD, wonderful days! Build each other up… With anyone!

  • Those dealing with a mental health day
  • Family and friends trying to understand

2. pray in the power of the Holy Spirit, and

Can anyone ever get too much pray? Maybe just make sure it is supporting with understanding. Also, pray protection over us.

Some praying could be for the doctors to find the correct medication balance… Success isn’t always with complete healing with mental health any more than someone is not delivered from cancer by prayer…

3. await the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ, who will bring you eternal life.

Wait and support… God’s timing is perfect… Our wants are not important… But when God really shows up… Well! It’s worth the wait!

4. In this way, you will keep yourselves safe in God’s love.

I don’t know about others but I can get distracted by things in the world… Mental health issues can creep up on me and I haven’t noticed.. or I (and this is a big one) catch myself wanting to hurry up with my devotions so I can go do something… Yah, there’s something wrong with this picture… The fix? Accountability… Journalling is a great way, at least for me… I just need to send a text to someone that I did my devotions and my journalling…

Networking means – get yourself several family members or friends who you know you can count on… Who you feel comfortable sharing with… People with whom you can take your “I’m fine” mask off and be authentic to…

Outside of family, I built up my network of friends at Celebrate Recovery… CR was a game changer… And it’s a huge reason why I’m still here today… try and see if there is one close to you… they are groups literally around the world… even if they are not close by, build up a good group of friends…

My last point is completely true… remember God is ALWAYS with you!!!!! Sometimes just saying His name might be what you need… After all, God is LOVE

Ugh!!! Morning Glory!!!

Hosea 9:6b Their treasures of silver will be taken over by briers, and thorns will overrun their tents.

Morning Glory… It looks pretty hence the name… To me it represents all that is NOT actually glory… It’s a horrible take over my garden, I have arrived and I don’t ever plan on leaving weed! Just 0.25-inch root is ALL it takes to start blooming again… It’s root can run 14 ft and 4 inches down…

It is nasty… My evergreen tree is totally brown and dead as it is located in an area we only notice a few times a year… but there it is… ruined… Just like the verse says…

With mental health, there are many seldom seen areas… Some we don’t yet know exist, which is fine, God will shine His light and truth when the time is right…

They are areas we totally avoid because we choose to ignore them… They are painful… They can be something we actually choose to cling to… To try and show the world what was done… Or hold onto because we don’t know of anything else to do…

But just like the weed… So much bigger and “mightier” than the pretty package we have become ensnared by… It will stop us from moving forward…

The past few days our church has been blessed to have a special man of God speaking… He has spoken into the lives of many and been 100% dead on about what their lives have been but more importantly, where their lives are heading… Seriously… I’ve been sitting back smiling and nodding my head as he describes them then our pastor will explain to the prophet and the assembly what the person does or is known for…

One verse he has used over and over is Romans 12:2 (NKJV): And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

Renewing of my mind… Prove… Good acceptable… Perfect will of God…

The mind games… Even the “silent” mind games… Doing things out of habit…

Charlie, our speaker, told us 1 truth…

Doubt kills more than failure…

Mental health… Doubt? They are brother and sister…

The definition of insanity… Doing the same thing over and over again BUT expecting different results…

If I want to change the ending, I MUST change the script! AKA renewing of my mind…

Is it easy? Ahhh… No!

Can I do it? By myself? No… With God though… Yes!

What if I mess up? Get up, dust off and move forward…

I’ve been struggling with my mental health issues more lately… Let me give you a back story first…

About 5 years ago I was just starting into my mental health crisis… I had what I called oppression attacks… They seem hell-bent and were so overpowering I would not have wished them on anyone…

Over the last few, I have stabilized for the most point…

Then this past spring I was battling oppressive attacks, not as strong, again… I described it as having an elephant squished inside my chest and it also trying to squeeze God out…

One Saturday afternoon I was to get together with a wonderful bunch of church ladies and I was nailed again… I sent an I can’t make it text and then I started reading my devotions… Psalm 109 has attributes of God and I claimed every single one! And just like a balloon popped! The pressure was 100% GONE!!!

I was speechless! I have lived most of my life with pressure inside… This was a totally new experience!

The pressure is still gone…

So my battles are mostly different…

I now need to figure out what goes into the “empty” space…

I’ve had episodes of being overwhelmed at times, which is totally new…

I’ve been dealing with the 5 years issue… and feelings of not being contributing to the world…

And of course, the never-ending daily battle of mental health… just always so close at hand… I have to be vigilant

God has given me 3 visions for options:

With the always present MH – simply – Put on the armor of God as soon as I wake up…

The empty space – I planted the everso quoted mustard seed – it won’t grow overnight into a massive plant – It will take time to properly fill in this void…

The 5 years – instead of looking negatively – I now look at how FAR I have come because of God’s love…

So the “morning glory” which has entangled me for far too long is getting de-rooted, dug out and replaced… I’m learning to recognize it more and more – quicker… but even if I don’t for a while – it’s not like I’m watering it!!

God and I will get to it all in good time!!

And I will replace it with glory to God instead!!!!

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