For the Love of a Dog

We, like many others, have a very lovable dog… she has been a great companion as I deal with mental health issues…

And, yesterday, she needed surgery on her leg… last night she was in so much pain that we took her back to the vet and she stayed overnight… (she’s home and doing much better now)…

But until we dropped her off again she was whimpering non-stop… and she isn’t a whiner… But it was SOOO HARD to listen to… Holding her to try to make her as comfortable as possible… Feeling powerless…

It got me thinking about how hard it must be for God to listen to us “whimpering” away when He is the ultimate source of comfort and He desires to be taking us under the shadow of His wings...

I didn’t even consider God for a LONG time…

With mental health, it’s so easy to be caught in the downward spiral and what starts as a whimper can turn into something… and our self-talk is often so negative… mine got to the point I didn’t even consider God for a LONG time… I was convinced that my family would be SOOO much better off without me…

Of course, God is always at the ready… He hears our whimpers and more than understand our pain… after all, He was truly and utterly abandoned in the garden before His arrest and eventual crucifixion… He was in so much distress He sweated blood…

He understands and is always ready for us – we just have to turn around…

When 3 Becomes 5

With my last blog posting I mentioned my miracle and how I suddenly have no vertigo and balance is really not an issue anymore, except that my muscles have to get used to not being an issue 🙂

The lady that prayed for me told me to expect continued healing and that has been the case!

I still have more energy… Sleeping less and overall I feel the best I have in at least 10 years!!

Sometimes healing is slower and not always instant…

A lot of this, really goes back to an event that happened in February… We have an Art Life program at our church… We gather once a month and together have a theme and do whatever art we choose/feel lead to fo whether it be drawing, painting, reading poetry or anything else…

I hadn’t attended in quite some time, especially because my meds were not working as they needed to be… But when I went in February I had not one or two but three times – no, make that 4 times people sought me out and prayed for me…

The first was simply saying that God has noted my struggles and also my faithfulness… it came in the way of written words, something I will treasure…

Second was a lady who spoke to the group showing a drawn piece of art… That she had been working on for a while… She had written some on the back and said that now she understood God wanted to give it to someone specific… Me… Another treasure…

The next was prayer… A special guest asked if anyone wanted prayer… I was on a roll and I didn’t want it to end!

Her prayer over me was  encouraging to keep going as I was and forecast good events in the distance… that my art could become something more than just personal…

The 4th… no wait… the 5th, nope still the 4th… was immediately after the third and she said that while I was being prayed for by the other lady, she had a vision in which she saw me shaking off snow and breaking free of what has held me down…

Needless to say – I was  beyond buzzed… At this point…

The last one was “to let go of holding in my creative self” with child like abandonment… This was from a man, who I had never been introduced to

Back then, it was hard to tell my stick dog from my stick horse…

So, with child like faith, I started to work on my art skills… I’m no Picasso (who really understands his art) Rembrandt…  but I’m working on it… Drawing, painting and Bible journaling (which I absolutely love doing!!!!)…

AND a few days ago I was really missing my music side of creativity… I bought a used keyboard yesterday and I’m SOOOOO loving it! For the price I paid… It’s more than what hoped for…

So I will end my babbling on… I had honestly only remembered 3 things from Feb… And now that 3 has become 5…

Vertigo You Gotta Go!

May 2, 1997 was a night that changed my life and the lives of my family… I was in an accident which resulted in a fractured skull, a brain injury and VERTIGO…

If you’ve never had vertigo feel blessed! For those that have you know it is a nasty thing to deal with… It drastically effects your balance…

Over the years I learned how to move and not move my head to invoke vertigo…

When my first grandchild was announced, I spent time in physio to help regain my balance and be able to chase after the grandkids – determined to not just be the rocking chair and stories grandma… It took a lot of work but I re-taught my brain how to balance better…

Fact: Balance is based on 3 things… Ears, eyes and the top of your spine…

My ears caused vertigo so they didn’t help… My neck has arthritis and didn’t really help (so I was told at physio)… That left my eyes… (And my feet also could detect “flat” surfaces to help, thanks to physio)…

Fast forward to 2 weeks ago… And I was at a church bonfire get together… It was all great UNTIL sun was down… We were out in the country… No street lights, no real light pollution, except the bonfire… And it was in a field… A bumpy field…

I was literally fighting really hard not to have a nasty fall… Wobbling like a Webble when a lady, who I had only briefly met, noticed me desperately stumbling… She offered to pray for me…

Now, when I had my accident I perforated my left eardrum… So my hearing on my left was less than ideal…

As she prayed my left ear started hearing TOTALLY different than my right ear… When we speak or listen our ears detect the vibrations… It was as if she was praying inside my left ear! About 100 times louder…

When she finished I could hear better with my left ear than my right ear! And the vertigo is completely gone!! I can move my head in any direction and no vertigo spell is triggered!!!!!!!!!

After 22 years, I could stand and walk on a bumpy field as if nothing was ever wrong!

The next time I see my doctor I plan to have him look into my ear and confirm what I already know… It’s perfect!

So does God still perform miracles? Of course… God is the same today, yesterday and forever