God Uses a Pouch

If you have ever seen the movie Hook, based on the story of Peter Pan, there is the wonky uncle who keeps looking for his bag of marbles… At the end of the movie, he finds his bag… They had been left at Neverland years before when he was a lost boy …

The Bible refers to treasures a few times… Mary had her treasure…

Luke 2:19 (NIV): But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.

But with regards to mental health I found and like this gem:

1 Samuel 25:29 (NLT): “Even when you are chased by those who seek to kill you, your life is safe in the care of the Lord your God, secure in his TREASURE POUCH!

With all the events surrounding the birth of Christ, Mary tucked everything she could so she could be able to close her eyes and relive those moments… As a mother, I have treasured memories hidden inside my heart of events of my children…

What can be hard about mental health is we devalue ourselves…

I don’t know about you but sometimes my choices, even daily choices, are based on the value I see in myself…

It’s easy to see the value of others but we sure can be hard on ourselves…

And I hide some of the tough days because I don’t want others to think of me as “that lady”… The screw up… The nut job…

Even with family, who I know all love me, at times I worry about embarrass them…

The “cure” for self devaluing is spending time with God… Seeing how He sees us…

God uses a pouch…

One two three WOW!

It’s been a couple of interesting weeks…

2. Twenty two years ago I was in an accident and not only fractured my skull but also damaged my inner ear… Looking up and left would trigger 99% of the time…

1. I’m dealing with a med change… For the better actually! I haven’t had this much energy in at least 10 years!

2. I have dealt with vertigo for over 20 years after an accident damaged my inner ear… I could pretty much guarantee but every time I looked up and left – I would trigger it and end up dizzy…

I was healed… I can’t trigger any vertigo! And now my left ear hears better than my right ear!!People around me were talking in little groups… I went up to a few and listened with both ears to test the truth… I’ve always sat to the left of people to have a better chance… No longer an issue!!!

While at a church event I ended up really REALLY staggering while outside and around a bon fire… Two ladies prayed and one clasped her hands over both ears… About 2 seconds in I suddenly hear way different with my damaged left ear…

A new church campus is opening up in a few months and my desire to get involved was way bigger than my body would allow… Now with my vertigo gone… With the med change giving me energy, to get involved, God has fulfilled some of my heart’s desires!

I’m guessing some people might think I’m just “one of those” type of Christians… BUT we all know God can heal… So why is it hard to when one does?!?!?

3. We have a must do project to do on our house, but we don’t want to go into debt to get it done dot-dot-dot I made a phone call that I had been meaning to do… God literally put the papers I needed in my hand while clearing up some wayward papers… I made the phone call and 100% unexpected it turns out that we will now have the money we require! God is good… All the time! All the time, God is good!!!!!

(read this about 5 minutes after posting)

Releasing Impossibilities

by Charles R. Swindoll

Read Matthew 6:25-34

When you face an impossibility, leave it in the hands of the Specialist! Refuse to calculate. Refuse to doubt. Refuse to work it out by yourself. Refuse to worry or encourage others to worry. Stand against that.

Instead, say, “Lord, I’m carrying around something I cannot handle. Because You are not only able but also willing, take this off my hands. It’s impossible to me, but is as nothing with You.” Persevering through the pressures of impossibilities calls for that kind of confidence.

Now, our problem is that we hold on to our problems. If your Swiss watch stops working, you don’t sit down at home with a screwdriver and start working on it yourself. You take it to a specialist.

The problem is that the Lord gets all the leftovers after we try to fix things ourselves. We make all the mistakes and get things tied into granny knots, then dump it in His lap and say, “Here, Lord.”

No! Right at first, say, “It’s impossible; I can’t handle it, Lord. Before I foul it up, it’s Yours.” He is able to handle it. But we don’t usually give God those chances to “fix” it. We are so totally (and sinfully) confident in ourselves that we don’t give God the chance to do what He is a real Specialist at doing.

If something is humanly impossible, then what in the world are we doing trying to pull it off?

Excerpted from Day by Day with Charles Swindoll, Copyright © 2000 by Charles R. Swindoll, Inc. (Thomas Nelson Publishers). All rights reserved worldwide. Used by permission.

From 1% Failure to 100% Success

Oh, those days when life seems hopeless… When mental health issues are kicking my butt…

I don’t know about you… But I have times I feel like I am worthless, frustrated… That my life seems to be useless… and to some it might seem like a “pity party” but it really isn’t pity… It’s something more insidious… How we perceive ourselves…

If you think you aren’t worthy just compare yourself to:

David… A bad parent… A murder… A person who dealt with lust… BUT YET God calls him “the man after God’s heart 💓

Abraham… He is caught for 2 big lies that affected other people big time… His faith can be called into question when he slept with another woman – because God hadn’t filled His promise…

Aaron, brother to Moses… His brother goes awry for a few days and he not only caves his faith in God… He CREATED his own physical God! This is the man who was present and involved in the plagues in Egypt…

Keep your faith, make sure you keep up on any medications prescribed (we still have a brain chemical imbalance)…

Cain… Bad attitude, oh and a murderer! God didn’t zap him away from earth…

God created us for a reason… and therefore we are only to check out on His timeline… Of that I’m 100% sure…

Reach out when you need it most…

God’s Backup Plan

Depression, anxiety… Any of the “personality”disorder can run rampant in our lives…

At the worst – of it just reaching out to God can seem impossible… When words can’t express how we feel… The emotions are bouncing around and any chance at “sane” thoughts are too scrambled…

But God has a built in backup system…

Romans 8:26–27 (NLT): And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for.

BUT THE HOLY SPIRIT prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words…

And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God’s own will…

When Jesus was in the garden, on the night he was betrayed and all alone…

Luke 22:43–44 (LEB): And an angel from heaven appeared to him, strengthening him. And being in anguish, he began praying more fervently and his sweat became like drops of blood falling down to the ground

Yup… Jesus gets it… He understands agony… He totally gets what we experience…

And from that He’s able to help guide us through our hard times…

Ice Tea and Refuge

Nestea had a series of commercials quite a number of years ago… people who drank their iced tea felt like they were falling into a pool… The Nestea plunge

Often, with mental health and anxiety, life can seem overwhelming… Those times where you just need to shut down… A place of refuge…

Isaiah 25:4–5 (NLT): But you are a tower of refuge to the poor, O Lord, a tower of refuge to the needy in distress.
You are a refuge from the storm
and a shelter from the heat.
For the oppressive acts of ruthless people are like a storm beating against a wall, or like the relentless heat of the desert.

God provides for our refuge… A place to be safe, feel safe… Where we can ease our distress… Our fears… Where oppression doesn’t rule…It is both simple and complex… At times with words running through our brains it seems next to impossible to control… Shutting down is an option I’ve used both with God and other times I’ve just shut down…

Anything with God is obviously better… listening to Christian music… Finding verses from the Bible that calm us… Praying to God… Sending out a text to someone you know who will pray for you… all of these are available… The complexity is in putting it all into action… seeking the help, realizing it’s what we need…

The simple is… take the plunge with God…

PS Remember that while Satan can create thoughts, he can’t hear them… As a friend said “don’t leave those thoughts staying rent free… verbally tell Satan to go to hell… He does hear our voices…

Grumpy, Great, Grabbing and Canucks

I had one child who, as a toddler, did not always wake up in the best mood, (can we say grumpy) instead they needed to have some cereal and then their day was great… they needed sustenance to start a great day…

Psalms 92:2–3 (NLT):  It is good to proclaim your unfailing love in the morning, your faithfulness in the evening, accompanied by a ten-stringed instrument, a harp,
and the melody of a lyre…


Today we have Spotify, YouTube, and Google Play Music of ways to connect with God in musical praise and worship…

With mental health each day can have its own challenges… sometimes just getting out of bed is a monumental task… planning to start my morning with God can help to set the tone for the rest of the day…

Psalm 92 tells of acknowledging God… to think of the good aspects of my life – of God – of His unfailing love… think of it as a personal Spiritual hug… on the tougher days just remembering to connect with God can be hard… the whole pray without ceasing… but if it becomes a habit – something I do every day – it makes me focus on what God has done in the past with and for me… and then at night – it’s time to check in with God and review the day… see what God has orchestrated for me throughout the day… the music aspect… well I have found that when I listen to Christian music or I’m just been more focused on God that I “catch” myself with a song running through my mind… Recently at church we sang about – Jesus we love You, Oh how we love You…

That day and today I had those words filling my mind instead of some of the negative “mental health” battle words… and then, at the end of my day… I had instruments playing a melody…

So finding – wait – FINDING??

No – Reserving – planning – demanding of myself to find MAKING quality time with God is a BIG reason where I am with my recovery… The more “militant” I am about it – the better I am off… it’s way too easy to make a devotion bargain with God… “So God – the Canucks are playing tonight – in about 20 min… so I figure I can get my reading done easy enough – but my prayers will be a Reader’s Digest version instead ok? I’ll try to do better tomorrow”

While feeling the NEED to do devotions should never be because of conviction (there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus), it should be desired… it should be a high priority – and planned ahead… 

One thought I have had running through my mind lately is – if Jesus were to walk into the room would I want to change the channel – or suddenly grabbing my Bible – or change radio stations??

I’m not saying it’s all radio/TV/books are bad… something you need to balance out in your life with God… if I have had a great devotion time then having Jesus sit down and cheer for the Canucks with me would be awesome…  

Validation

I don’t know about you – but I really REALLY like validation… with Borderline Personality Disorder it’s defiantly a symptom for me…

James 3:13-16 (NLT) If you are wise and understand God’s ways, prove it by living an honorable life, doing good works with the humility that comes from wisdom. But if you are bitterly jealous and there is selfish ambition in your heart, don’t cover up the truth with boasting and lying. For jealousy and selfishness are not God’s kind of wisdom. Such things are earthly, unspiritual, and demonic. For wherever there is jealousy and selfish ambition, there you will find disorder and evil of every kind.

Before my big mental collapse a few years back… I was self-seeking for validation – through my job – through my networking and volunteering – social media… I had a big hole inside that I was seeking to fill with anything I could – I had many hurts and scars that had festered and then – I couldn’t handle them anymore… not only physically, but mentally I collapsed…

Look back up at the scripture… such things are earthly, unspiritual and demonic (YES! demonic)… what?!?!? you think Satan has just crawled under a rock for the last 2000+ years?

I was jealous of what other people had… I had been that way since my childhood… I was ambitious – my volunteering was at a provincial AND national level before I crashed… I really really tried to find my acceptance away from GOD – and it so FAILED!!!

James 3:17-18 (NLT) But the WISDOM from above is first of all (1) pure. It is also (2) peace loving, (3) gentle at all times, and (4) willing to yield to others. (5) It is full of mercy and the (6) fruit of good deeds. It (7) shows no favoritism and is (8) always sincere. And those who are peacemakers will plant seeds of peace and reap a harvest of righteousness.

Those two verses of James describe what is the opposite of self-fulfilling – WISDOM… it lists 8 things…

Any validation is great… Getting noticed can be taken with genuine amount of humility… But a false humility isn’t correct…

Validation should really come from the peace, calmness and a sense of accomplishment from within where the Spirit of God resides…

Snuggly Treasure Pouch

I saw a cute chubby cheeked little lbaby being carried in a snuggly… Wrapped up nice and tight to their mom… Able to hear her heart beat, her breath and talking… Almost the same as before birth… Totally feeling secure…

1 Samuel 25:29 (NLT): “Even when you are chased by those who seek to kill you, your life is safe in the care of the Lord your God, secure in his TREASURE POUCH!

Many times with mental health, Satan loves to make us feel isolated… Tries to get us to isolate… To start to spiral down…

The realization or revelation that we are NEVER alone can be a game changer…

1 Sam 25:29 the chaser IS Satan… and it is our life on the line… Yes, suicidal thoughts but also isolation (a big struggle for me many times)… Being confined to your house is someways death as our interaction with others is pretty much dead…

Is it easy to un-isolate? Nope… But starting to acknowledging the problem, relaxing ourselves enough to hear God’s heart beat as we are in his treasure pouch is a great start…

From a Fork to a Juicer

I’m pretty good and keeping up with my journalling and daily time with God… note, pretty good – not perfect… from time to time I’m angry with God (which is NOT a sin) and I don’t want to do my devotions – just to punish Him! Yeah – I know… it only punishes me…

With mental health, there are times that I do my devotions, and even as I write this post, that the deeper understanding – the deeper thinking – of grasping of…… (arrghhh – ok – I’m stuck again – but hopefully you can grasp my point)…

Even when I take time to slow down… to be still and know that He is God… take time to renounce Satan from being around me – it’s like my thoughts can’t connect… sometimes they seem like they are being scrambled like eggs with a fork… sometimes like a protein shake in a blender… or veggies being chopped up in a food processer… and then there is the juicer… rammed in and all the pulp is separated and whatever left is liquified… aaarrrggghhhhhh #2 can’t piece together the rest of the thought… but again – I’m sure most readers should be able to get my point…

It’s really easy to get discouraged… easy to have my scrambled thoughts amplifying in my mind, drowning out anything else… and mental health is a real problem for many people… a pastor’s wife I knew walked out of her house one day… they found her body a few months later… she loved God… she was a valued member of society… a dedicated Christian…

Sometimes I have to guard my own mind as it too wants to go for a long walk.. (but I am safe!)… long walks are thoughts – not plans… but why is this still happening?

Is it because of a lack of faith? Maybe to some degree… or is it no different than someone battling cancer???? Do they have a lack of faith?

Often it “just is”…

Either way – I will keep praying – and using Bible verses that I have in my Bible First Aid Kit…

Spending time with God is NEVER wasted time… God doesn’t owe me anything… He has already covered me with grace…

As I continue my battle… I will listen to Christian music… I will do what I know has helped… and even if I can’t figure out anything deeper than that God loves me, that He has a plan for me… that I have a purpose… that the simple faith of a child is all I need… I will do my best to stick to that…

Jesus said we need to have the faith of a child… Maybe I need to be more literal…