Monthly Archives: February, 2014

Paradox

I’m wondering if I’m caught in a paradox…  As the depression medications start working better it seems that my anxiety is also going up…  And it could be that when my mood was so low that it was masking the anxiety….  I went through something similar with my brain injury…  The second year it felt …

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What Anxiety (can) Feel Like

I suffer from anxiety…  And I’m trying to figure out my triggers…  For me one is my high personal expectations…  The rest are still a mystery…  I can be sitting watching TV when I suddenly start feeling overwhelmed…  For me it’s in my head and chest…  Then it takes off…  At times it feels like …

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The Moat

Only one time in 19 years of marriage has my husband witness me cry…  The thing is,  I don’t cry…  I put tears away a long time ago or I would have been crying all the time…  And that is a fear now….  That if I start I won’t ever stop…  Which I know sounds …

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Out of the Blue

I’m finding that the brain is still such a mystery… ok – not a big surprise really – but still… just when I thought I was starting to understand and maybe gain a bit of control… WHAM!! Suicidal thoughts come out of the blue…. I was driving with friends and the car slid a bit …

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Changing Gears

The private therapy session I had today was excellent…  She explained that the mind has three states,  or as I like to think,  gears…  The first gear is survival…  Your brain senses a threat, perceived or real and quickly decides to either freeze,  fight or fly to avoid the danger.  The second gear is excitement,  …

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