Monthly Archives: February, 2019

What If ‘s x 2

Deep depression for me means isolation… Hiding from the world… Hiding from anything I can… Un-depression is different, obviously… And useful is a hope for well, sometimes anything Anxiety can kick in here… The what-if’s… What if… I fail I make a mistake No one needs me No one noticed me I’m not really needed …

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A New Moment to

The Borderline Personality Disorder in me loves to keep “safe” in the negative thinking… The old idea of not risking something might happen… Better to expect that it won’t or otherwise I’ll be (yet again) disappointed… Which my BPD already “knew”… It’s easy to stay with what I already know… I’ve lived most of my …

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Keep the Home Fire Burning

Keep the Home Fires Burning was a song composed in 1914 in Britain during the First World War… As a Christian we are charged to always keep the light burning… To have His light showing… With mental health all around it seems so dark… But God always provides a light to shine… 2 Corinthians 4:6 …

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The Rest of the Story

I can usually fall asleep better if my brain isn’t going a kazillion miles a minute… And one radio station used to play Paul Harvey and “The Rest of the Story” (Seriously, take to listen to a few stories they are always worth the effort)… This week I started off well… Except for the cold …

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A Kleenex, F-bomb and WWJS

Thoughts… Garbage in and garbage out… That is a true statement… When I was in junior high school and one day I was having one of “those days”… I just seemed like everything possible was going wrong… I kept hearing the “F-bomb”… When I used the restroom it was scratched into the stall door… I …

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Are We There Yet?

We all know those words… Are we there yet?!?!? And with healing, outside of a miracle, it takes time… Noah: 100 years to build a boat Abraham: Isaac came when he was around 100 years old Paul: 3 years before he launched full-time into being an apostle Me: 5 years into healing from a messy …

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Fear God and the Abyss

Fear of the Lord… Fear is a scary word… It can evoke many images… The 3 little pigs and the bad wolf… Jaws… Failing an exam… For some people they fear living at home so the streets seem safer… A mental health crisis is scary… Spinning out of control… Not sure where darkness ends and …

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