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I Don’t Want to Adult

Today marks 2 years since my last admission ended… Major medication changes… It took many months to get to the right combo but it was well on its way… I had to trust my psych that he knew what he was doing…  With God it’s the same thing… I have to trust Him… Picture a …

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Hello God… It’s About Time

Hello God – Integrity

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Nudges

My sweet pooch, Ivory, would love to play outside all day except on really raining days… Unfortunately for her she needs to be with someone to watch her and my life gets in her way… But when it’s time to do what must be “done” she gives me a nudges with her nose and until …

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If Only

I’m currently doing the 12-step program Celebrate Recovery offers. It’s actually my third time. Every time I do there’s always something more that God can work on with me. We’re dealing with the lesson on POWERLESS – an acrostic on how we really need to depend on God and for God’s help with the issue… …

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A Tomato And Mental Health

 I was tending to my little garden, a hopeful success this summer (I usually kill anything). As I was working my way down to my tomato plants – I saw it! My first tomato! (and yes I know there are more in the picture). What makes this little tomato so special was a reflection on how 1, …

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Not Always or Every & God Sees

BPD people want to be needed. How I dealt with this.

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Out of the Blue

I’m finding that the brain is still such a mystery… ok – not a big surprise really – but still… just when I thought I was starting to understand and maybe gain a bit of control… WHAM!! Suicidal thoughts come out of the blue…. I was driving with friends and the car slid a bit …

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Distraction

Right now – that is what my basic day consists of – distracting myself from suicidal thoughts… playing video games – watching TV shows (usually not full episodes as I can’t handle watching a full episode)… more video games… Trying not to think about too many things as I can spiral down… and we know …

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