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Buster Keaton, Brother Lawrence & Popcorn

January 9. 2017 Sometimes it seems like nothing goes wrong and I have a perfect day… key work SOMETIMES – usually scant and far a few (where did that saying from come – far a few?) I’m usually good at seeing the bigger things in life – the trees in the forest – and mostly …

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Home again & the journey continues…

I was released from the psych ward last Friday… some old meds removed – some new meds added… other meds tweak… and I feel better – I feel okay – no use of PRNs since my release… I know I’m not ready to go back to work just yet… I need to build up to …

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Flickering Flame

For the past week I’ve been an inpatient at our local hospital…  In the psych ward…  Major med adjustments…  Tonight hubby will pick me up on a weekend pass…  Next week towards the end of the week I should be released…  Then the next phase of this journey will continue…  Trying to establish a daily …

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Duck season or Wabbit season?

Did anxiety come first or did depression? One thing I know is that they like to play together and play fiendish pranks…  It reminds me of Bugs Bunny arguing with Duffy Duck over who was the target for Elmer Fudd… Bugs Bunny Clip Some days you wake up and depression has decided to take most …

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The Moat

Only one time in 19 years of marriage has my husband witness me cry…  The thing is,  I don’t cry…  I put tears away a long time ago or I would have been crying all the time…  And that is a fear now….  That if I start I won’t ever stop…  Which I know sounds …

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Out of the Blue

I’m finding that the brain is still such a mystery… ok – not a big surprise really – but still… just when I thought I was starting to understand and maybe gain a bit of control… WHAM!! Suicidal thoughts come out of the blue…. I was driving with friends and the car slid a bit …

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Confidence Comes in a Bottle

For now at least. that it the case for me… while my brain chemistry gets sorted out and better balanced, and I get used to the med adjustments I was prescribed today – my added level of confidence now comes in the form of a little sub-lingual pill… now to be taking daily – for …

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Philosophical Rambling

Philosophical rambling… I have one question I am drawing a blank in answering… so I am going to through it out to the blogosphere… What does it mean to live?  And I don’t mean – heart pumping, lungs breathing… what does it mean to really live – to feel fully alive? The Bible has Jesus …

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