Category Archives: suicide

If Only

I’m currently doing the 12-step program Celebrate Recovery offers. It’s actually my third time. Every time I do there’s always something more that God can work on with me. We’re dealing with the lesson on POWERLESS – an acrostic on how we really need to depend on God and for God’s help with the issue… …

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Underneath the trappings we’re decaying

Revelations and Mental Health

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Mental Health and Faith

One of my all time favorite pastors is Chuck Swindoll… He preaches with humor and eloquence, love and truth while showing me who God really, that God He loves me and then Chuck guides me to know God better… In a recent email Chuck talks about endearing faith… And it’s totally CR (to me at …

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For Such a Time as This, Ester & CR

The book of Ester reads more like a fairytale than any other books of the Bible… there is a beautiful Queen, King, hero and a villain… but twisted plot where God shows himself… It’s a good read… Queen Ester  But this story isn’t a fairytale… It’s real life… I’ll skip to a later part in …

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A Tomato And Mental Health

 I was tending to my little garden, a hopeful success this summer (I usually kill anything). As I was working my way down to my tomato plants – I saw it! My first tomato! (and yes I know there are more in the picture). What makes this little tomato so special was a reflection on how 1, …

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Carved on Human Hearts

2 Corinthians 3:3 Clearly, you are a letter from Christ showing the result of our ministry among you. This “letter” is written not with pen and ink, but with the Spirit of the living God. It is carved not on tablets of stone, but on human hearts. (NLT) People who have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) …

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Omission & Stigma

Omission… not saying something when you know you should have… It comes at the moment you realize you need to stand up and respond, even when if weren’t asked, and decide not to. Keeping silent is just as wrong as a person who committed or said or doing something wrong…  This is called an omission …

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Not Always or Every & God Sees

BPD people want to be needed. How I dealt with this.

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A Little of This, A Hard “That” & Stallions

God has been confirming where my ministry is… it is to women with mental health issues just like me. And that I will be in the trenches with them… for now at least, the physical healing has not been granted. I still deal with fatigue and down days. I have my network of accountability partners …

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Year 3

Three years ago today, January 3, 2014, was the first day I realized I was in serious trouble. January 3 – I recall answering a simple question out loud and then saying internally “they have no idea I want to kill myself” This wasn’t just dealing with the blues where I took medication for 6 …

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