Category Archives: medication

How can you be depressed?!?!?

The other day at group therapy we were discussing on how people seem to think that depression “MUST” be gone the first time you laugh or crack a joke… yes, depressed people can still laugh and joke around… and giggle… and thank God we can – or the results might be horrendous.  I liken it …

Continue reading

Home again & the journey continues…

I was released from the psych ward last Friday… some old meds removed – some new meds added… other meds tweak… and I feel better – I feel okay – no use of PRNs since my release… I know I’m not ready to go back to work just yet… I need to build up to …

Continue reading

From Extrovert to Introvert

A few months ago,  say November,  anyone who knows me would have classified me as an extrovert… Since my depression and anxiety have hit I am very much the opposite…  So what has changed,  other than brain chemistry? From personal insight I would say that I’ve put up a wall partly for personal protection and …

Continue reading

Flickering Flame

For the past week I’ve been an inpatient at our local hospital…  In the psych ward…  Major med adjustments…  Tonight hubby will pick me up on a weekend pass…  Next week towards the end of the week I should be released…  Then the next phase of this journey will continue…  Trying to establish a daily …

Continue reading

Paradox

I’m wondering if I’m caught in a paradox…  As the depression medications start working better it seems that my anxiety is also going up…  And it could be that when my mood was so low that it was masking the anxiety….  I went through something similar with my brain injury…  The second year it felt …

Continue reading

What Anxiety (can) Feel Like

I suffer from anxiety…  And I’m trying to figure out my triggers…  For me one is my high personal expectations…  The rest are still a mystery…  I can be sitting watching TV when I suddenly start feeling overwhelmed…  For me it’s in my head and chest…  Then it takes off…  At times it feels like …

Continue reading

The Moat

Only one time in 19 years of marriage has my husband witness me cry…  The thing is,  I don’t cry…  I put tears away a long time ago or I would have been crying all the time…  And that is a fear now….  That if I start I won’t ever stop…  Which I know sounds …

Continue reading

Out of the Blue

I’m finding that the brain is still such a mystery… ok – not a big surprise really – but still… just when I thought I was starting to understand and maybe gain a bit of control… WHAM!! Suicidal thoughts come out of the blue…. I was driving with friends and the car slid a bit …

Continue reading

Changing Gears

The private therapy session I had today was excellent…  She explained that the mind has three states,  or as I like to think,  gears…  The first gear is survival…  Your brain senses a threat, perceived or real and quickly decides to either freeze,  fight or fly to avoid the danger.  The second gear is excitement,  …

Continue reading

My Toolbox

After a couple of hard days, and thanks to the prayers of friends,  I find myself tonight sleep in a place dedicated to  helping adults overcome mental health issues…  Yesterday after working I was so fatigued in every sense that the darkness surrounded me and I wasn’t sure I could fight it off.  So at …

Continue reading