Integrity How To Lesson

INTEGRITY… My new theme idea, goal, challenge, blue chip at CR…

So what is integrity? This word that God has laid strongly on my heart?

Definition of Integrity: “The quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.”

“S/he is known to be a person of integrity S/he is known to be a wo/man of integrity

Synonyms: honesty, probity, rectitude, honor, good character, principle(s), ethics, morals righteousness, morality, virtue, decency, fairness scrupulousness, sincerity, truthfulness, trustworthiness

SYNONYMS DEFINED:

Rectitude: morally correct behavior or thinking:

Fairness: the quality of having strong moral principles; honesty and decency, impartial and just treatment or behavior without favoritism or discrimination.

Integrity – But just how can an intangible choice be physically manifested? Words are just words… Words can become actions… How do I know I’m succeeding?

Proverbs 2:1-7 My child, listen to what I say, and treasure my commands.

Tune your ears to wisdom, and concentrate on understanding.

Cry out for insight, and ask for understanding.

Search for them as you would for silver; seek them like hidden treasures.

Then you will understand what it means to fear {awe} the Lord, and you will gain knowledge of God.

For the Lord grants WISDOM!

From his mouth come knowledge and understanding.

He grants a treasure of common sense to the honest. He is a shield to those who walk with integrity.

Routine… Please don’t interrupt my routine or whatever was still left probably will be forgotten, unless it is blatantly the obvious… (Seriously I forget…)

Micah 6:8 O people, the Lord has told you what is good,
and this is what he requires of you:
to do what is right, to love mercy,
and to walk humbly with your God.

The what is good… I’ve been taught values and principles since I was a wee little one… so good, well Jesus is good (perfect, love, etc)… And for me…

Would I offer Him…

I’m going to use the measuring rod of… If Jesus walked into the room and saw/heard whatever was happening… Would I offer Him to join me or try to cover it up…

God also tells me that there are 3 things He requires of me…

1 Do what is right I have a great book with 66 chapters that came with me as an instruction manual if I’m not sure and spend time with Him (see point 3) (and the “Golden rule”)

2. Love mercy (Dictionary: compassion or forgiveness shown toward someone whom it is within one’s power to punish or harm)

Mercy… God has been very merciful in my life… Basically it’s was used when Jesus washed away my iniquities at the cross… and then over and over and over again when I deserved the consquences of my actions when I ask for new transgressions…

So to love mercy means I have to give it as well… The Lord’s Prayer… Forgive us our trespasses as WE (I) forgive others

3. Walk humbly with Him He’s been so merciful to me… He is love… He tells me that “I” matter to Him… Realistically… I don’t deserve even being in the same universe as Him… And I need to keep reminding myself of this… God deserves all the glory

Integrity: My challenge… I’ve put down my thoughts, they may need adjusting…

I’m setting the wall high… I can’t remember who said it but it was something like it’s better to be reaching for a high goal then a small one that’s easy to hit…

More integrity coming in future blogs…

Nudges

My sweet pooch, Ivory, would love to play outside all day except on really raining days… Unfortunately for her she needs to be with someone to watch her and my life gets in her way…

But when it’s time to do what must be “done” she gives me a nudges with her nose and until I put down or cease to do what I’m doing and she keeps nudging me until I start moving towards the door…

She follows me to the door and when I put my shoes on jacket on she eagerly starts going around in circles all the time watching me make sure I’m still getting ready… open the door and we are off!!!

As a Christian I, like anyone else, have the gift Jesus sent down shortly after he ascended to heaven… The Holy Spirit… I think of it as my Godly conscience, a connection to God with prayers, direction and decisions – even when I can’t utter a word because I’m overwhelmed for fabulous and not so fabulous reasons…

HE IS WHAT NUDGES ME

That inner (good inner) voice “speaks” with easy tasks like I should take my coat along even though it’s a sunny day… And sure enough it rains or gets cooler than expected or big decisions, life altering ones (not snap though).

Four years ago the bottom of my life was falling away. As a child, as a teen and as an adult years I would have spurts where I was closer to God, usually during the tough times… 

The Holy Spirit always nudges me in every situation… He probably pounded a bass drum, a fog horn, but I wasn’t listening, I was building with MY self-worth… I ignored Him…

When I hit the bottom I had a choice seek His help or just stay there and figure out a successful suicide…

God pulled me up… I’ve need really tuning into God…

Integrity… And being true to myself with myself and I will share my progress on my blog to show myself as accountable…

My daily marker will be did I at least try? I know there will be days I fall flat on my face… Failure, though, will be in not getting up again… I may not blog every day…

Integrity… I started November 1 I wasn’t yet sure of criteria yet… But I’ve had a lot of nudges that I’ve listened to, some I haven’t but

#1 I didn’t quit (huge accomplishment)

#2 I admitted my slips and made amends

Next came some trials… A sore back which interfered me being away from CR big group and Step Sisters…

My Mental Health… I’m pushing through… It’s a struggle…

E V E R Y D A Y

I want to isolate, stay home, in bed… wrong thoughts coming at me…

Out came my daily accountability checklist… And I started going through it…

#1 Morning prayers… Thanking God… The armor of God – piece by piece… Other verses…

And I keep going down my list… Check box by check box…

When I am done, I have a lot of peace… I have Christian songs running in my head blocking out the negative thought. I put on Christian music…

And right now routine is needed:

I’m dealing with a situation/something in my life… Obviously, I wish I wasn’t… and it could turn out to be nothing or else something not if my choosing… And would be more than I can handle… and I will be listening for the Holy Spirit nudges

Huggles and loves and prayers…

If Only

I’m currently doing the 12-step program Celebrate Recovery offers. It’s actually my third time. Every time I do there’s always something more that God can work on with me.

We’re dealing with the lesson on POWERLESS – an acrostic on how we really need to depend on God and for God’s help with the issue… it looks at the past…

If only…. Only If…

Only if
I had noticed _____ the _____ would/wouldn’t have happened
If only I had known _____ that day I wish I could take back my words
That time spent would have been successful only if _______
If only I had done this or only if I had seen this or only if I had been there or only if somebody had…
You get the idea…

With my mental health… If only I had talked to _____ or done ______ or not done _____ then maybe I wouldn’t have had my mental breakdown.
(see true life confession at the bottom)

Hindsight is 20/20… We all make decisions we regret… A child thinks if only I hadn’t climbed that tree my arm wouldn’t have broken…

So do I how to deal with the “if only’s”

It’s simple but incredibly hard…

  • I repent
  • I talk to God… prayer…
  • I listen to God through Bible studying
  • Learn from them my if only or only if”
  • Ask God to help me to avoid doing it again
  • I talk to my sponsor accountability partners
  • I make amends

There will be consequences… (not judgements – boy tree > broken arm)
But also peace with God from spending time with God… Be still, and know that I am God Psalm 46:10
Phil 4:4-8 …Peace of God which passes all understanding will guard your heart in Christ Jesus…

Back to POWERLESS (CR acrostic)

P is pride yah… I had lots of pride… which lead to many “if only”

O Only if… It’s really easy for me to play the self-bashing game… Instead,  I confess to God, He already knows what I did so what’s the benefit of hiding it, He can help me understand why and guides me to what I should do next time or to make amends with those who were affected by my actions…

Worry… Both backwards and forwards… Back… I can stay trapped in the past… Forward… Is God involved? So I just need to trust His plan (it’s called faith)

In going to end the acrostic here… Want to learn more? Find a Celebrate Recovery

Battling the if only or only if is better done with support…

Thinking about doing it does seem easy… It’s the application that is soooo hard…

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Okay that above is a battle plan… seems easy simple steps… I know the application is hard and I need the Holy Spirit to give me a nudge or a kick in the butt when I need to use it…

Honestly – it is what I want to do with my heart… that’s the God part of my life – but there is a carnal part of me that just SCREAMS to ignore it – excuse it away (excuse = the skin of truth stuffed with a lie), the self I have inside will distract me… I will think of ways to “justify” my reasoning to ______

The New Testament talks a lot about the sinful person I have inside… It can block the butt kicks… I might feel them or I have not listened long enough to the Spirit in me that I don’t feel them…

This was pretty much what happened in my life… I stopped listening to God… could I have avoided the mental health crisis? I don’t know that what I am dealing with is VERY physical – my brain is literally changed  – why or how or ??? I’m not 100% sure… it’s a disease… why does someone end up being a diabetic? Was it one too many cookies or cakes? Could they have prevented it? Regardless…
Regardless – I am where I am… it wasn’t sudden – there were clues it was happening… it started early on in my life… it’s where I am… This is where God and I try hard to keep moving forward…

Besides…. 

If there isn’t a battle going on – there should be and I need to seek God again… life happens – living it is the hard part….

(CR… I have no affiliation with them other than acknowledging how profound a has changed my life)

Underneath the trappings we’re decaying

My personal Bible study is going through the Book of Revelations. There are 7 church’s addressed each receive praise and instructions. Philadelphia gets a lot of praise but Sardis gets a lot of warnings including that while they seem alive they are really dead.

I know your deeds; you have a reputation of being alive, but you are dead. (Rev 3:1)

From my commentary:

We cover up the dead places in ourselves with all sorts of regalia. We fill the emptiness with fine clothing, once-in-a-lifetime experiences, or relationships in which the other is set up as god. Underneath the trappings, though, we’re decaying.*

To me at least this soooo takes me to my mental health issues… For years I had been trying to fulfil the void inside that could only be filled by God… instead, I sought my self-worth in what I was performing and trying to show-off how important I was… trying to feel special and acknowledged by those around me….

Underneath the trappings, though, we’re decaying.

I had a huge dead place inside – and for me – the longer I chose to avoid it – the bigger it became… until I finally reached a point where the void was so big, I slipped off the edge and fell into it… and was forced to deal with it… and have God save me… but not before I hit the bottom with my depression, anxiety and BPD to the point of suicidal thoughts that would haunt me daily for months and months… and they still pop-up from out of nowhere still and can leave me quivering – literally, physically inside I feel like a taser or something has hit me…

I’m working the way out of the void with God’s help, however, there are scars… working and battling with God in the void isn’t easy… physically my brain is actually changed… I need – require medications to keep me from returning and falling back into the void…

Is it a case of lack of faith? No… Is a diabetic lacking faith by using insulin?

And just like a diabetic – somedays are better than others… it depends on way too many factors to list…

The good news is – I have God on my side… if I stay close to Him – listen to His spirit whispering to my heart and soul words of wisdom, I’m okay – even on the days which are not so good…

And prayer, but just not alone – I have a support network in place – I can send out a text message and know they are also praying on my behalf…

Growth – I am actively (well hopefully more days than not) seeking God’s will through not only reading my devotions but also in a group with women doing a 12-step from Celebrate Recovery – I do not have any personal gain by mentioning this other than knowing it works. The women in my groups have all different ways we have met – substance abuse, sexual abuse, anger, food addiction, codependency… but the one things we do have – a growing faith in God and building a network to support each other…

 

*Barry, J. D., & Kruyswijk, R. (2012). Connect the Testaments: A One-Year Daily Devotional with Bible Reading Plan. Bellingham, WA: Lexham Press.

Reality vs Thoughts

It’s easy to write from this side of the screen and have ideological thoughts about how life is lived and everything is peachy-keen and then get up from the keyboard and have life smack me right in the face…

Now to those people who know me in real life… say, laugh, raise your eyebrows, look shocked, re-read the words – but remember it’s a long process… please know that I am trying to live my life as authentic as I can… that I am the same person who leaves the church on Sunday through Saturday and because I have spent time with God I am a little further down the road with God when I return… (reality – I’m human and it will be hard to measure)…

I have a few stresses in life right now… and I’m trying to use my tools to the best of my ability… and yes, I’m overwhelmed from time to time throughout the day… so it’s toolbox time:

  1. Recognise I’m not at peace
  2. Start with Phil 4:4-8 Rejoice and Gentleness
  3. Contact my support network – because well – that’s why I have them right?
  4. Use other tools I have gathered and put together…
    1. God is fully aware of what I am going through
      • As I’m writing this God lead me to Psalm 91 and gives me angels!
        Verse 11: Psalm 91:11 (NLT) For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go.
    2. Other Bible verses I have gleaned for times like these… when I KNOW that God directed and spoke to me… whispered to my heart – I suddenly just knew or realised…
    3. Resource other times He has proven faithful and loving…
      1. Look back at old journals…
      2. Listen to music I know that comforts my soul…

Mostly though – it’s prayer and (if necessary self-forced) rejoicing (it’s a command remember)… rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice (repeat 10 or 1000 times as needed)… rejoice over anything I can… about my past history with God, my family, that I live on our beautiful earth where I know that God loves me more than nature, that I know that Christ died on the cross just for me, where I know I matter to God – He will come and find me when I get lost, that He protects me under the shadow of His wing… that I live in a country where I can practise my faith…

that if I can’t put into words what I want to really say to God – then the Holy Sprit within me will groan to God on my behalf

and where I go get the peace that I know will be coming and replacing the stress… to spend time with God and remember that I can be still and know that He is God (even if just for a few seconds)…

Yup, I’m off – I’ve gathered my thoughts (thanks for travelling with me today) and I have my battle plans…

Phil 4:4 Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say rejoice! – I’m starting here

Mental Health and Faith

One of my all time favorite pastors is Chuck Swindoll

He preaches with humor and eloquence, love and truth while showing me who God really, that God He loves me and then Chuck guides me to know God better…

In a recent email Chuck talks about endearing faith… And it’s totally CR (to me at least)…

I know that some days or some weeks or such are going to “suck”… It’s going to “seem” as if God has forgotten me (at least in an area of my life)…

I’m very impatient especially with my Borderline Personality Disorder… I NEED to have the answer NOW please and thank you… BUT God doesn’t work that way…

Chuck writes “We’re very fickle in our faith, aren’t we? We are inconsistent, ambivalent.”

As a human, the longer it takes to get an answer the more I doubt myself… And the head games start playing… Remember I just wrote that I’m impatient?

Abraham… Promised a family that would become as numerous as the sand on the shore – took a long time to be fulfilled, Noah – 100 years until the flood…

Saul wrote about this in James 1:2-3

Here is what God wants me to learn today… I need my faith to grow… growth takes time… It builds through endurance… Sometimes very long endurance…

Then when “longer term” issues come I will have the faith I need because I have built up to a level where I can on faith…

Do I have faith endurance to last hours, weeks, months, years?

And with mental health it’s not a short time issue (there is no take one happy pill and wake up fine)… It’s life long battle so on the better days I should seek to strengthen my faith… And on hard times I can rely on the endurance I have built with God knowing I will get through it…

The CR part? On the days where I find my faith is waning, I have my sponsor and accountability partners to help… And the truth I have learned in the 12 steps AND 8 principles (8 based on the word of God)…

I blogged about how I was stressed and needing to rejoice instead yesterday… So I lay down last night and closed my eyes and rejoiced ever anything I could think of… God, family and memories, friends and memories, where I live, food, shelter, clothes, remembering times and trials God has brought me through already… Just anything I could recall… and I woke up this morning not nearly as stressed… It was as if I had been sheltered and cuddled under His wing all night…

It’s a nice feeling to wake up to…

Carved on Human Hearts

2 Corinthians 3:3
Clearly, you are a letter from Christ showing the result of our ministry among you. This “letter” is written not with pen and ink, but with the Spirit of the living God.
It is carved not on tablets of stone, but on
human hearts. (NLT)

People who have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) have a real problem with self acknowledgement. We seek it from other people who we respect or are in a position of authority. We crave attention – sometimes to the point of danger. We can(?) get jealous of anyone we perceive as getting attention instead of us. We self deprecate ourselves – for both real &/or perceived reasons. We can go to any length if we are feeling abandonment, rejection or we are disappointing someone. And I mean ANY length.
(BPD has a suicide rate of 1/10)

In elementary school I tried to get my self-worth from teachers during and after school helping them… In Jr. High I joined the library club.

One gift I do possess is music. I had 3 piano teacher who told my parents I would never be able to learn. They were wrong. In elementary school I played the cello and completed the entire program the first year. A couple of years later I started playing the organ (it was really cool back then) and found success winning some festivals. In high-school I started playing the bass guitar and my success continued. In grade twelve I was ranked the top bass player in the province and offered scholarships to universities.

Music was one escape…  It was something I was good at and I worked hard to not disappoint my family…

I was married shortly after a I graduated and began building my self-esteem on my external world.  For a while I was too busy to look heavenward. I was a good person. Attending church (check), Tithing (check), helping with tasks at church (check), a good mom (check), a wife (check)… I was even working to help the budget even after the children were born.

My brain said enough!!!

The older I got, the further away I drifted from God – and the bigger the hole inside grew. It grew to the point where my brain said enough!!!
And I entered into the mental health world…  I was diagnosed with BPD, (GAD) General Anxiety Disorder and (MDD) Major Depressive Disorder…

my straw had landed… 

Why then? As the saying goes – there is a final straw that goes on the donkeys back… my straw had landed…

BPD = lack of sense of myself… looking to my external world to figure out who I am while having a BIG hole inside…

I was flat on my back about as low as I could go (I had attempted suicide) and facing God… I realized I was powerless and needed God’s help if I was going to survive… He was there and started on taking the correct path with Him… being a REAL Christian… dependent on Him

Being a Christian = who I am in Christ – I am a new creation – the old is gone.

I have the Spirit of the living God carved on my heart

Is everyday perfect? No. There are many days where I find myself looking up while I’m on my back – but I’m not on the bottom – I’m further up the trail… I can look back and see where I was… and God is always there waiting to help me continue my journey…

Not Always or Every & God Sees

I’m just like everyone – we all want to feel wanted, special. needed. loved. And for people with Borderline Personality Disorder this is very true but the self-hatred and the polar opposite is also true  – My 2 second teaching version of BPD is – I hate you – DON’T LEAVE ME!!

The “I hate you” is a coping method of pushing you away because we know that eventually you wiil so let’s just get it over this now, but we really are desperate for a friend.

BPD is a severe diagnosis – 1 of  everty 10 people diagnosed  will die from suidice

If someone you know or love has been diagnosed please take the time to read up on it. There are many really good YouTube video’s

There are  500 plus ways to be diagnosed so it’s not a one size fits all illness but there are 2 basic categories everyone ends up – rage or quiet. Some information online say 4 – either way it’s serious. My BPD is always there. Ready to jump out. Sometimes I catch it and sometimes I don’t until later.

I am blessed as I have a great resource network that I have built up over the last 3 years. The best one by far is Celebrate Recovery it is a Christian 12 step. I’ve posted the link here. I hadn’t heard of it until I really needed it and when I did I was emotionally, spiritually and literally physically dead.

I was emotionally, spiritually and literally almost physically dead.

But I took ownership of me. Was it easy? NO – absolutely – categorically  NO! 

I took mental health classes thorough my local mental health and I did the homework. I attended CR week after week.Sometimes I sat in my car for 1/2 hour to even open the door. I attended CR when I was allowed out on phys on passes. I did the 12 steps twice and I’m on my third. I attended church – I joined a small group from church. I built my network of support. New friends.

I changed my thinking behaviors – insanity is doing the same thing over and over again but expecting different results. If you want change you need to change the script.

I stopped using words like EVERY and ALWAYS – Every time I open a box of cereal it splits open and falls on the floor? EVERY TIME?? umm…well , you know like… twice
I ALWAYS get scratched by my friends cat? ALWAYS – well – only when I sit on her favorite chair…

I was challenged to think of 3 things to thankful for – right now…. you do it too…

  1. I have access to a computer
  2. I am in a place where I am sheltered so I can actually use a computer, so I’m not in the rain or snow or dessert
  3. I have clothes I am wearing right now

Get the idea? Small things count! Build your list – keep adding to it… maybe you can look out the window and see a bird or a tree or…

I have been dealing with this for just over 3 years now. It’s a SLOW process – It’s a hard and rocky pathway.

BPD people need other BPD people & we need other “normal” people (do they actually exist?)  okay how about other people who are dealing with other issues but no BPD so we can sort of aim for what we want to be….

A lot of people quote Jeremiah 29:11 I like 11 to 14

 Jer 29:11-11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity

Captivity that pretty much describes how I felt 3 years ago… a churning, boiling black pit – my own personal hell on earth trying to drag me down for good, It came close.

I started off this blog talking more about how everyone (in this case every fits) wants to be needed, and I have found that I am needed – but as God needs me – this isn’t a wishy-washy statement. God built me from the zygote on up. I have desires and passions inside of me just waiting to be used – I have talents. God isn’t going to push those aside and tell me to do something I have no desire to do (unless I need to learn more about humbling).

To not use my talent is a waste. I may fumble a bit while learning to utilize it – but at least I am using it.

As for being noticed – yes – I am being noticed. God is watching and I know that’s more than enough.

Buster Keaton, Brother Lawrence & Popcorn

January 9. 2017

Sometimes it seems like nothing goes wrong and I have a perfect day… key work SOMETIMES – usually scant and far a few (where did that saying from come – far a few?)

I’m usually good at seeing the bigger things in life – the trees in the forest – and mostly it is the things on the pathway that I trip on… usually… sometimes all the little ones seemingly play poker and I get hit with a royal flush… the days where every time I turn around there seems to be something… individually they are nothing – but when they come together they later watch the collective review and I’m sure they must be looking at the comedy they scripted for my day… and yes, it looks like a  Buster Keaton film (black and white silent film star worth seeing).

Someday later I will look back and get out a bowl of popcorn and tell the story of one day when…. to my grandchildren and in true grandparent fashion and there will be embellishments.

But on the day it is happening??  My friends who know me in person know that I am a kluts … seriously… I have an inner ear problem as a permanent leftover of my brain injury coming up on 20 years ago… and I am working hard to change this… today it seemed like everywhere I turned I was getting to know door frames or wall corners or slipping or tripping on well – dust! AND it just wasn’t my legs/feet that ganged up on me… my arms and hands joined the collective as well… I tried to put something somewhere… and missed… ot  it slipped… or (thanks to my wonderful memory) would bring something into another room for a specific reason – get distracted about 3 seconds later (can we say ADHD) and then either forget why I came into that room – or seriously can’t remember what I brought – or where I left it about 10 seconds later…. (no joke)…. if you were to put microphones in my house you would hear a lot of “seriously Shauna” or “OK God – I know it’s here somewhere – please help me find it” said repeatedly.

By the time I’m now getting ready for bed and reflecting on my day… I’m de-stressing… I didn’t really keep track of it until just a bit ago… kinda like the frog in water (I’ve heard not done)… put a frog in beaker of cold water and the frog is content – then put a bunson burner, the ones from high school chemistry) under the frog but at a low flag… the frog is still content and awhile later suddenly the frog croaks… so why? Well the frog was content – and the water was slowly rising – and the frog never noticed and suddenly the frog died because the water temperate was no longer compatible to it’s life.

One day of this can happen and for me – I don’t like the days when I don’t keep myself in tune with God – listening to the Holy Spirit – I’ve somehow tuned Him off…

Brother Lawrence expressed the highest moral wisdom when he testified that if he stumbled and fell he turned at once to God and said, “O Lord, this is what You may expect of me if You leave me to myself.” He then accepted forgiveness, thanked God and gave himself no further concern about the matter*

*Tozer, A. W., & Foster, M. E. (2007). Tozer on the Holy Spirit: A 366-day devotional. Camp Hill, PA: WingSpread

Here’s looking at a better day tomorrow…. I’m going to be more like Brother Lawerence

Walt Disney – “Life is a harsh sentence…”

I just finished watching the movie Saving Mr. Banks – a story of how the book Mary Poppins became a Disney film…

SPOILER ALERT!! Walt and Mrs. P. L. Travers are talking – He has just flown to England for one last attempt to be trusted in bringing the book to screen. Walt reveals some of his past – how he had a totalitarian father growing up. He tells her that “rare is the day that I don’t think about the eight-year-old-boy delivering newspapers in the snow, and old Elias Disney with that strap in his fist. And I’m just tired, Mrs. Travers, I’m tired of remembering it that way. Aren’t you tired too, Mrs. Travers? Now we all have our sad tales but don’t you want to finish the story? Let it all go and have a life that isn’t dictated by the past.” 

Walt realizes that it wasn’t the children who Mary Poppins came to save – it was their father and the book is really all about forgiveness – Mrs. Travers retorts, that she does not need to forgive her father Walt  agrees saying “You need to forgive [yourself].”

“Life is a harsh sentence to lay down
for yourself.”

Here is where reality and imagination differ.  Walt is correct – it is a harsh sentence – so harsh that only Jesus can redeem our lives. Celebrate Recovery is where reality in life is laid out. We’ve all been given life sentences and we are made up from events in our life – good and negative. But the best part is – Jesus has already written the end of our story. He laid down his life 2000 years ago and took our life-sentence upon Himself.

We all have our own sad true to life tales. Our own hurts, habits and hang-ups – but we do not have to face the future alone. Being part of a church, getting healing will change our life story – choose to Celebrate life instead. Celebrate Recovery started 25 years ago in a single church in California. Today it is in over 20,000 churches around the world. I know how much it has helped me over the past 19 months.

Maybe it’s time for you to be freed from your life sentence.