Fear God and the Abyss

Fear of the Lord… Fear is a scary word… It can evoke many images… The 3 little pigs and the bad wolf… Jaws… Failing an exam… For some people they fear living at home so the streets seem safer…

A mental health crisis is scary… Spinning out of control… Not sure where darkness ends and light starts or at times that light still exists…

But what does it mean to fear God? Is He up in heaven ready to launch lightening at us? Watching us mess it up (yet again)? Is it that He is just plain angry and has given up on us?

No. God doesn’t cause our pain… It’s sin of the choses of others or ourselves…

So what does it mean to fear God?

One of my all time favorite pastor’s is Chuck Swindol and he has a great definition:

To fear God: “a wholesome, worshipful respect for God accompanied by a hatred for sin”

And with the fear comes service…

To serve is “a willing available obedience”…

Obeying Him out of devotion…

Fear is awe… Respect on steroids… a Biblical example is Moses and the burning bush…

My fear, my awe with God is in simply looking back on how far He walked with me on my journey through the darkness of mental health…

1 Thes 5:5 (NLT): For you are all children of the light and of the day; WE DON’T BELONG TO DARKNESS and night.

It took God’s light to help me see my way out… Now that’s a cliche saying… So physically that was by getting back in touch with God in attending Celebrate Recovery meetings… Doing CR 12 steps to get and keep my life right with God… My recovery was and is dealing with depression… And it meant going to church… It meant creating a network of support with CR people… It meant I was willing to believe in myself even when everything in me was saying the world would be better off without me…

2 Cor 4:6 (NIV): For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ

Light shine OUT of darkness… Not just shining in… Out means God is already in there… It means I have trust and faith in God otherwise how could light be in there?

Psalm 23:4 (NIV): Even though I walk through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff,
they comfort me

Realizing I am wanted by God, knowing He provides me the light I need and will be my Guide… That insignificant little me… That huge, omniscient God sees and loves me…

I, like Moses, many times I have dropped with my face to the floor, and cried out to Him with everything I could give… Opened my heart, my thoughts, my confessions and worshipped Him in awe… In fear… Ready to be His servant…

What else could I but do when He snatched me from the lip of the abyss of death?

1 Comment

  1. “Realizing I am wanted by God, knowing He provides me the light I need and will be my guide”…. love this. ❤ Thanks for sharing

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