I’m Not A Doctor… I Don’t Need Patience!

Yes, a peanut gallery joke… But yet it rings true…

Let’s face it… We live in an instant “entitlement” world…

5 years ago I was just at the beginning of figuring what was happening with me… I knew I was depressed… I had these massive, horrible, would not wish them on anyone oppressive attacks…

But I didn’t yet realize the full scope… I remember talking to a psych nurse and asking how soon I would be back at work – a week or two? She looked at me and said “I’ve seen people a lot less sick than you are take way longer than that”…

I mean… Come on already… Give me a bottle of pills, I’ll get a few good night sleeps and I’ll be back to my old self and back to work!?!?

After all, I’m a Christian!! Right?!?!

Ok, so yes, I’ve been depressed and my thoughts are scrambled… And these horrible oppressive things are still happening…

And at times I really can’t get words out of my mouth for some reasons…

And I don’t understand yet why I have all these horrible thoughts… Even suicidal thoughts…

But I’M A CHRISTIAN! I’m better than all this! Aren’t I?

Well, it’s been 5 years… And I’m not back at work… And pending a miraculous healing, I’m not likely to… Which sucks because I really, really, really loved my job…

I’m not as ill as I was though… I’ve learned a lot about myself and about God… More specifically… About God and I together…

God has lots of promises… God only takes a few seconds to answer prayer… If you remember that a second to Him is like a thousand years to us 🙂

God told Noah to build a boat and he got to work on it right away… And finished 100 years later…

Abraham… Big, huge, immeasurable promise from God… how long did he wait to have his son Isaac?

Hebrews 6:15 (NLT): Then Abraham waited patiently, and he received what God had promised

An adapted quote from a book:

“it was the hand of God that was holding her now,’ the soft, white, strong hand of God. She sat patient, submissive, not understanding, but waiting and looking up for the reason”…

I’ve come to realize that for the most part when we ask God for something, not driven by the sinful nature, that God sometimes say no, says yes to some things but I think more often His answer is wait… He’s got something better planned…

Psalm 37:3–4 (NIV): Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

He knows what is best for us…

The question is… Do we have the patience?

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