Mortal Danger & Even Though

1 Samuel 30:6 (NLT): David was now in great danger because all his men were very bitter about losing their sons and daughters, and they began to talk of stoning him. But David found strength in the Lord his God.

David’s life was in mortal danger… To me mortal danger is mortal danger whether it comes from people or suicidal or oppressive thoughts…

What is notable to me is how David dealt with his situation…

A few weeks ago I was struggling… My anxiety was building to serious levels… I had been dealing with some issues and those were past… So I wasn’t in adrenaline mode anymore… Reality hit… And it wasn’t going well…

This ending adrenaline mode to mental health crisis is OLD… As recorded in 1Kings 1-14… Elijah must be running on adrenaline and performs a huge miracle… Then when it’s over he crashes…

1 Kings 19:4 (NLT): Then he went on alone into the wilderness, traveling all day. He sat down under a solitary broom tree and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, Lord,” he said. “Take my life, for I am no better than my ancestors who have already died.”

On a Saturday I and a few friends were getting together but in dealing with my anxiety where it was at… There was no way I could handle being in a crowd… So I sent a “I’m not coming” message…

So what did I do? How did I survive my mini crisis? I sent out help texts to my support team knowing they would pray for me…

I turned to God… I did my daily devotionals and God delivered… As I was reading I saw attributes of God… Who He is… What he has already done for others… And seeing as God is the same yesterday… today and forever… I cried out to God…

“Father your word says You did this… Your word shows You are… You have proven You have…”

AND IT WORKED!

As I was praying and claiming I suddenly realized that horrible oppression filling me inside was GONE… I mean GONE…

It was a really strange feeling actually… I couldn’t remember the last time I had felt so light inside…

And I rejoiced! I send a THANK YOU message explaining how I was feeling, looked at my watch… Got dressed to go and met up with my friends…

Does this mean I am completely healed? As much as I would love to say yes… It still isn’t the case…

Hanukkah 3:17-18 states:

Even though the fig trees have no blossoms,

and

there are no grapes on the vines;
even though the olive crop fails,

and the

fields lie empty and barren;
even though the flocks die in the fields,

and the

cattle barns are empty,
yet I will rejoice in the Lord!

So EVEN THOUGH my mental health issues are not gone; and I battle with them…

Yet I will rejoice in the Lord!

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