Gravity

Up – down – left – right…We’ve all seen astronauts in space floating around because gravity isn’t there…

Sometimes with mental health it seems to be the same… Finding where to head isn’t just a case of direction… It’s also trying to find that feeling of being grounded…

Thoughts are scrambled… time passes – sometimes too slow and sometimes too fast… sometimes it seems that time has stopped…

Often it seems like a dark road with no end but the beginning has disappeared…

Matt Maher has a song that resonates what it was like for me when I finally turned to God – Alive Again – The first verse and chorus:

I woke up in darkness surrounded by silence
Oh where, where have I gone?
I woke to reality losing its grip on me
Oh where, where have I gone?
‘Cause I can see the light before I see the sunrise
You called and You shouted
Broke through my deafness
Now I’m breathing in and breathing out
I’m alive again
You shattered my darkness
Washed away my blindness
Now I’m breathing in and breathing out
I’m alive again

The first verse words described exactly how I felt… Of how it was when I finally turned to God… That I had lost reality… I was in a very dark place locked inside of myself… And that it was God who HAD to rescue me… Nothing or no one else could…

that I was breathing again… that my darkness was shattering…

before that I was basically dead – I had a beating heart but emotionally I was dead – I only stayed alive as I sort of knew that suicide would only cause harm to those who loved me – but yet at times – suicide and finding a release for my pain inside was soooo strong…

Turning to God grounded me again – I started to find my way to walk – it wasn’t like Dorothy skipping down the yellow brick road… lots of ups and downs – turning this way and that…

But many prayers… love from people who simply loved me without always understanding… And yet reaching down to help pull me up…

In many churches there is finally the realization that mental health isn’t a lack of faith…

The fact of actually BEING in church is an attest to having faith!

When someone who is fighting a mental health issue &/or crisis is coming to church… Hug them! Love on them!

It’s a confusing situation for everyone… Even those not directly involved… And it NEEDS to be EVERYONE being involved…

Remember the statistics of 1 in 4 will battle some sort of mental health issue… Be it you, a family member, a friend or maybe even a person attending your church for the first time trying to make some sense of what is going on… They need love and support… Not whispers or avoidance…

Ask yourself… How welcome are new people in your church? Does someone greet them? Does anyone talk to them before and after the service? Does someone invite them to sit with them?

Here’s another question… How does someone dealing with mental health issues look like?

Do know what look for?

Do you know that at least one of your friends &/or family members will deal with it?

Often there are stories of people who acted “fine” during the day and then went home and committed suicide… Then it’s too late to seek out answers…

On any Sunday service I guarantee you there are people sitting in the pews who feel that they are dying inside… They think they don’t have enough faith, they think they are failing everyone because they feel as they do…

Some can be hearing the service and inside their heads are wondering if anyone knows they want to kill themselves…

I know because I was thinking the same thing while working… and at times after I started going back to church, and everywhere I went… Going to church a few times isn’t enough…

What saved me was having had a relationship with God… AND my support network… People who didn’t judge, people who prayed with purpose, people who went for coffee with me… People I could reach out to… Text… Call

I have a strong belief in God… I have a strong faith in God… I believe in prayer and the power of prayer… I believe that God is the great physian and can heal anyone anytime anywhere including from death…

I know that, for now at least, I have not been granted complete healing… And that I am where I am supposed to be and trying to follow what path God is leading me on…

I also know that from time to time I will have a harder battle with mental health issues which is okay…

Someone I know who also deals with mental health issues asked me what I had done to beat mental health illness – and my answer was… I haven’t… Mental health is a daily fight… It’s there right beside me and I need to be wary of it…

Thankfully I know God is still with me 100% of the time… And I am anchored to Him… That’s my gravity…

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