God’s Timing and Birthday Cake

As I’ve been struggling and I, suppose being a bit philosophical about my “God can only handle situation” really just quiet a few all at the same time… 

I have been thinking about timing… Why does it seem that I want the answer, the healing, the decision soon as possible! I’m impatient… There is no McHeaven drive through…

We all know that God’s timing is perfect never early, never late…

And I realized it’s NOT because He wants us to suffer… (Remember God never punishes us. It’s man’s freewill that has put us where we are) 

In fact the exact OPPOSITE is the case… 

Think about a birthday party in the kitchen at the table and the cake arrives with the correct number of candles to blow out…

What about a birthday party in the yard outside, some decorations, the cake and it  now has sparklers!

Picture a birthday party at the lake… More people, cake, sparklers… And just as you blow out the candles fireworks explode…

We know which one would be the most memorable… It would be the talk of the school… Maybe the local news… It would be an monumental event that even non-believers couldn’t refute… Harvest time?

Faith/Patiences explanations:

  1. NOW!
  2. Our timing delayed but still mine telling God how long I’ll wait…
  3. 11:59… God’s timing… No interference from me…

When it’s 11:59 God INCREASES His presence (He doesn’t just arrive – He’s been there all the time)… He handles it… I get to sit back with awe and watch… 

If everytime I had a sliver He performed a miracle it would be mundane…

When He shows up with fireworks for a  situation that Christian’s AND non-Christian’s see…

Now, is my situation needing fireworks???

It might be..  I’m praying… It’s not just a single event… It’s a combo… So maybe brief fireworks…

I honestly don’t know… I would like to think it can or will be… Hopefully what I leave with God isn’t on a bungee cord like a lot have been…

I’ll leave you with a Kathy Troccoli has a song called How Would I Know that speaks to this idea… (She’s also my favorite Christian singer)

Sometimers

Sometimers – some times I remember and sometimes I don’t…

I tell people that if they don’t see me putting whatever they just told me into my phone – THEY NEVER TOLD ME! 

Seriously… 

I have 3 things working against me..  age, brain injury, mental health…

Twenty years ago I fractured my skull and rattled my brain around pretty good…

Four years ago I had a mental health crisis…

Now I just turned 51.   So I’m at my middle age… 

The age where my body starts paying the consequences for what I did when I believed I was infallible… I have some aliments…

The trio ganged up on me and I had the wrong time on my calendar for an appointment I had been waiting a considerable time for…. 

AAARRRGGGGGHHHH!!!!

I was frustrated… And I wasn’t asking God WHY… He NEVER punishes… He is never the cause…  and He’s always there with me…

I was feeling all beat up… Honestly, it’s beyond what I can handle… as there are a few sticks in the fire…

I was wondering if I should change my name to Job-ette…

Then God’s Spirit whispered to me… 

Matt 12:20 A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out, till he has brought justice through to victory.

Somewhere I read about it only taking a puff of air to break a bruised reed… This is symbolic of (my) oppression and mourning as I truly realize this situation is totally beyond my control…

(Matt 5:3-4  Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.)

Oppression… Four years ago litterally oppression was a word I was using to describe the episodes I was having… I was so far from God then AND I’m very thankful that I’m no longer feeling those episodes any longer!

The smoldering wick represents exhaustion… At the point of dying… God’s time to rescue us… 

Both represent feeble, meek, contrite hearts… Total submission to God…

Of leaving everything at the foot of the cross…

There is still the 3rd part of the verse: till he has brought justice through to victory.

Victory: (For me) getting some sticks out of the fire…

I’d really like to say I’m there… Total submission… I’m not… oh I’m sooooo sooooo not like Job… I’m certainly not blameless in my life…

The Apostle Paul talks about this in Romans 7:18  For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I HAVE the DESIRE to do what is GOOD, but I CANNOT CARRY it out.

Romans 7:25  Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.

Reading about what the sinful man ISN’T a get out of jail free card… He’s simply letting us know that even he – An Apostle!! Fights with the inner man…  He’s empathizing with us… it actually gives me hope… He wasn’t perfect… He did his best with God as humanly possible…
Hopefully, I’m getting better in my walk with God. He has given me 2 words that I’m really trying to live by:   Integrety and Perseverance 

I have other words He has given to everyone: Rejoice, the fruits of the Spirit… And of course:

1 Cor 13:13  And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. 

Never Alone

Gen 14:18-20  And Melchizedek, the KING of Salem AND a PRIEST OF GOD MOST HIGH, brought Abram some bread and wine. Melchizedek blessed Abram with this blessing: Blessed be Abram by God Most High, Creator of heaven and earth. And blessed be God Most High, who has defeated your enemies for you.” 

The backfill of the story is that Abram’s nephew, Lot, and everything he owned were taken captive… Big Uncle Abram goes, fights the bad guys and rescued Lot…

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To me HERE is where the story gets interesting…  Abram meets with the King of Sodom 

And Melchizedek, the king of Salem and a priest of God Most High, brought Abram some bread and wine.

A priest of God Host High? 

This warms my heart… The world was going to hell in a hand basket… (think Sodom and Gomorrah in the future)

And I had always thought that Abe was the only good guy left… 

NOPE!

There is always help when you look for it… 

With mental health… on a good day, make a help sheet… Who can you call? Where are you safe? Write the number of your suicide call line and any local mental health phone numbers.

Have an action plan that you can set in motion.

Who are your “priest of God Most High”? People you can turn to who REALLY support you? I found mine at Celebrate Recovery – people are authentic there… Masks are off… People who empathize with what you are going througt

(With Celebrate Recovery being mentioned on my blog… I have no payment or receive anything…. Just think about the facts)

Not sure about a church? Look up Celebrate Recovery and see if there is one close by… And not just in North America. There are groups around the world…

It’s good and works because it literally saved me…

One Full Week

  • A week has come and gone .. 1 down 51 to go… (Also 358 days until my next Birthday)

God created everything in a week including a day of rest…

So for me I want to look back 1 week… Has anything changed (hopefully weight loss after Christmas goodies)… But seriously… 

  • Am I closer to God? 
  • If yes, how or why or what? 
  • If no, why not? 
  • Was there something I should have done differently… 
  • Or not done or???? 

Have I changed into being a stronger Christian with a deeper faith?

  • Have I grown in my walk with God? 
  • Have I been a better family member? 
  • Did I show companion or love to “the least of these”… 
  • Did I do my devotions? 
  • Did I pray? 
  • Did I listen for God’s Spirit and follow His leading?

The quick and simple question is… 

Have I changed into being a stronger Christian with a deeper faith? 

In dealing with mental health… 

  • Did I put on my armour? 
  • Did I do a Michah 6:8 and please God… 
  • Did I take captive every thought captive.. especially with the thoughts that can easily dead me down? 


    • Did I rejoice instead of moping? 
    • Did I pray instead of distractions such as books or games? 
    • Did I proclaim that Jesus has freed me from the Dominion of Darkness?
    • Did I use Scripture?
    • Did I dance and worship?
    • Or did I lose myself mindlessly?

    1 Col 1:19  For You have rescued me from the DOMINION of DARKNESS and brought me into the kingdom of Your Son whom You love, and in whom I have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

    Matthew 4:10 ESV  Then Jesus said to him, “Be gone, Satan! For it is written, “‘You shall worship the Lord your God and Him only shall you serve

    I was pretty much house bound as my butt is still healing and I’m doing  some mid January… 

    Which means… I need look at duties at home… Mostly laying down… 

    CR Principle Seven: Reserve a daily time with God for self-examination, Bible reading and prayer in order to know God and his will for my life and to gain the power to follow his will (Steps Ten and Eleven)

    Somedays it was easier than others to rejoice … I’ve had a whole lot of road blocks thrown across my path with God in the last year… And, yes I’ve rejoiced when I’ve been frustrated or in tears… I’ve had pitty party talks with God and been angry at Him… and then we’ve talked and our relationship is growing… I think I’m getting better at working with God, not again Him… There were times where I did the Gollum talking to myself (Lord of the rings)

    I danced in praise and worship (with Ivory of course)…

    I’ve had some good open dialogues talking about my past (what I do and don’t honestly remember (skull fracture 20 years ago)…

    So overall if give this week about a 6 or 7… On the integrity scale

    I found this verse in my devotions:

    Isaiah 30:17 Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” 

    Isn’t God great! I get to start this week finding His whispers …

    Proverbs 3:5  Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.  

    Was God a Talent Manger to Abram?

    We’ve all seen type of talent manager portrayed on TV or in movies that comes out of nowhere, sees someone with potential and sweet talks them into a contract… 

    Part of my devotions today…

    Gen 12 1-3  The Lord had said to Abram, “Leave your native country, your relatives, and your father’s family, and go to the land that I will show you. I will make you into a great nation. I will bless you and make you famous, and you will be a blessing to others. I will bless those who bless you and curse those who treat you with contempt. All the families on earth will be blessed through you.”

    God singled out 1 man and promised him previously unimaginable ideals… Literally the world…

    • A great nation – current world lordsbip
    • Rich –  affluence among all the nations
    • World Renowned infamy – everybody would remember who Abram was
    • A blessing to nations – his lineage would be known throughout history

    All promised but based on Abram’s faith in God… Abram already knew the work it took to move to a different place. He had done it before with his father… God said and promised ideas never even believed possible…

    God said and promised ideas never even believed possible…

    There were times that seems so impossible to obtain again. There was darkness… I wasn’t looking for God so there was no light… 

    Until I was flat on my back and had 2 choices… End my life or notice a tiny amount of light way up there…

    I chose God… He promised me love, hope and faith… He promised to restore me so that what His pitch in living was worth all of the work it took to find my out with His as my Guide… He showed me that I’m a Princess – daughter of the King and a warrior as I have armor I put on.

    I have unique talents so that I fit into a spot in the body of Christ… No one else fits that spot…

    He is showing me my talents and how I can best use them… It’s a work in progress…

    Jer 29:11 God tells me He has a plan for my life…

    Mathew: The call of the Great Commission… The harvest is ready and I need to go to my area and harvest.

    God’s is my talent manager… After all… He built me and knows the best place to use my talents…

    Praying From the Neck On Up

    As a Christian I fully believe that God is able to heal any illness… 

    And the brain is at the top… So let’s pray for all of us from the neck on up…

    Pray this prayer:

    Father God… Just saying your name starts to calm my mind… And I’m rejoicing and thankful that God our healer is always with us… 

    Today Father, we come to and bow down before you… There are people in our midst and in faith knowing you have power to heal those whom to choose… People have been dealing with head issues for years, even children before they start school… 

    We know you are the Great Physician and we believe that as we pray together we will find people who have been healed. Amen

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    How shocked would you be if I asked you if you thought healing had taken place? I’m guessing many would say they believe…. And I sincerely mean that prayer…

    Ok, if you really meant it, are you believing people can be physically healed? 

    Then if you wear glasses or contacts are you willing see if God had healed your eyes? Are you willing to trust that before you leave here you can tuck them and never have to rely on them…

    The prayer was for the neck and up…

    It’s amazing how many people will be taken back or shocked when they realize they were part of the prayer… 

    How would it be if pretty much everyone here today was healed… But you weren’t… That you were the few coming back next week who still needing your glasses… Would you feel shame? Try to avoid people? What if it became something you had to go and see a nurse or doctor every couple of weeks… And well, we all know why….

    People always pray for others, especially the stigma’d mental health people… And not just in your quiet personal prayers… In any corporate praying…

    Many are so grateful that they haven’t had to deal with it. Then there is the gossip… Well I heard…. For long time a was wondering….

    ENOUGH ALL READY!

    People who admit the have mental health issues are TO BE COMMENDED for their willingness to share and to help others to realize they are not alone… Stepping out of the shadows is so hard… But for me it was needed… And I faced it with God and CR

    Heavenly Minded

    There’s a Christian saying… Don’t be too heavenly minded that you’ll be no earthly good…

    There are times when thinking about heaven is great and times when it isn’t…

    My heavenly thoughts and desires have had teeter-tartet ride in dealing with my depression, anxiety and borderline…

    When I was a teenager I looked for any verse in the Bible where I could kill myself and still go to heaven…

    Four years ago I hit the bottom… suicide was frequently on my mind… The pain inside was so intense… I would have what I then called oppressive attacks I would not wish on anyone, even Hitler… So heaven would be most welcome… 

    Once while riding in a car we hit some black ice and slipped… When the driver had control again they were giving a sigh of relief… My honest response was disappointment…

    Songs that talked about heaven increased my longing to get to there…

    Now, I’m enjoying music very much again… Even today my dog and I were rocking and praising it out… I was fighting some mental health lows and reverted to praise (rejoice in the Lord always Phil 4:4-8) got me over the hump…

    Then there is the other side… C.S. Lewis says it much better than I ever could…


    “If you read history you will find that the Christians who did most for the present world were just those who thought most of the next.  The Apostles themselves, who set on foot the conversion of the Roman Empire, the great men who built up the Middle Ages, the English Evangelicals who abolished the Slave Trade, all left their mark on Earth, precisely because their minds were occupied with Heaven.  It is since Christians have largely ceased to think of the other world that they have become so ineffective in this.  Aim at
    Heaven and you will get earth “thrown in”: aim at earth and you will get neither.” –  C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity, p. 118

    God never wastes a hurt… The desires I had back then allow me to understand and emphasize with the people who are…

    As for heaven… There needs to be a balance… 

    Enough that you want everyone you meet to come and join the party when the trumpet sounds…

    And enough healthy desire to complete your work on earth especially on the tough days… Thinking about what awaits us…

    Abe Women and Faith

    I’m so glad that the church I attend will adjust the timeline of the service as God directs the leaders…

    During our worship, this past Sunday, we spontaneously sung Hallelujah… Just that heavenly song of one word… Some with accompanied and some without… when it was just the voices the presence of God was undescribable… A small inkling of what heaven will be…

    Times like these are so important, at least to me, as they are memories of God being real… Let’s face it… From time to time, Satan has thrown that dart of doubt as God isn’t something we can physically touch… so we briefly wonder if there is a God…

    Belief is faith… Faith isn’t something to touch.. It’s not tangible… Kinda like men trying to totally understanding women… It’s a mystery that won’t revealed until Heaven

    We already have faith… In the chair you sat in today… How about when you’re stuck going up hill behind an 18 wheeler who sticks his arm out saying it’s safe to pass… And yet when it comes to the promises of God we doubt Him…

      Add in the Mental Health aspect… Depression, Anxiety…

      I’m guessing you can see where this is going…

      Romans 4 talks about the faith Abraham regarding the promise of nations. We see him have incredible faith and the willingness to sacrifice Isaac his only son (Gen 22)

      HOWEVER FAITH IS BUILT UP OVER TIME!!!!! 

      ABE BLEW IT… big time BEFORE be was at that level of faith with God… 

      Abe actually lied because of his lack of faith when still traveling to where God was guiding him to… Said his wife was his sister instead of his wife… (Gen 20)

      Abe and Sarah didn’t totally buy in about Sarah birthing a son… He had another son  through the maid of Sarah before Issac… (Gen 16)

      (Just a note… God doesn’t have a drive through window… He keeps His promises but on His time schedule)

      The important lesson is that God knows we won’t be unshakeable in our faith every day… But we also need to be actively increasing our faith…

      ESPECIALLY WHEN MENTAL HEALTH is a factor….

      Locking in heavenly memories are some of the good thoughts, the “things” Phil 4:8 type of thoughts (true, noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent, praiseworthy)

      Take time to make a positive thoughts list… Maybe at night reflecting on the day? 
      2 Cor 10:3-6 take every thought captive to Christ…

      THE GOSPEL TEST ON THOUGHTS

      • Does it honor Christ as Lord?
      • Does it increase my fight against sin?
      • Does it increase my love and praise for my Savior?
      • Does it strengthen my faith?