Don’t You (sorta) Hate It When…

When God shows up and ends your pity party!

I mean come on! Misery is so fun… We like company… Everyone pays attention to us, well at least at first…

And then God shows up with Bible verses that are so totally against my pitty party…

I not only have my mental health issues but some other things… And of course now that I stated and I’m trying to live a life of integrity Satan comes uninvited… Sneaks in… Takes any doubt thoughts and bakes a really nice cake for my pity party…

And since I’m already angry at God because I don’t understand AND He just won’t do things my way!

It’s easy to just look at the cake… It has all my resentments I’ve put away to deal with when I’m ready!!! That’s the icing…. The main part of the cake is filled with everything I’ve taken back from God as I can clearly do better!

And all the decorations are the newer issues I haven’t even talked to God about! He hasn’t done what I soooo wanted with other things…. Some issues are years old…

Then Satan lights a candle…

And with the light I remember that God brings light to the dominion of darkness… (1 Col 11:19) I start to pray and tell satan and his party to go…

I put on my armour of God… And I realize I’ve not done this for awhile…

And there’s something else been lazy about… When I’m struggling to use Phil 4:4-8 God’s instructions to me for peace…

Matthew 5 the Beatitudes…

Blessed are the poor in spirit… Blessed are those who mourn… Blessed are the meek… Blessed are those who hunger and thirst… Blessed are the merciful… Blessed are the pure in heart… Blessed are the peacemaker’s… Blessed are the persecuted…

I hang my head in shame… If someone had come to me I’d tell them go to Phil 4:4-8… And here I am not trusting God with my issues… So how am I showing integrity?

Well… I messed up… I’m human… I will take the time I need to get back my peace and also to look at my morning schedule and adjust it…

Oh, and the peace than transcend’s ALL understanding…

Way better than any cake!

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